ellaam mudinjiduchu

  I am really sorry ... this is the final am asking u sorry.....  drive pannikittey edho njaabagam ...but ... naan unakku ennellaam panna koodaadho adhellam pannittendi ...... i  inneram unakku ennenna problems nu theriyalai...suresh thittunaa..epdiyaavadhu solli samaalichudu.... ..  idhukku
mela naan unnai kastapaduthunaa ...naan unnai love pannadhukey artham illama poidum .......
ennaala nee niraya manakastangalai pattutta ...   enakku nee avoid panra thinking ah iruku ... also thyroid level increased ..hormone levels is not in controle.........  naan unakku kadaisiya kodutha  kastam avasarathula edho njaabagathula msg paniten ...     idhukku melayum naan unkitta veruppai unadakka  virumbalai
.. 
en chellam di nee...unakku oru kastamnaa thaangikka maatten... ippo naaney unakku remba kastamaagitten... idhukku naan un mela vecha love nu solli reason solla virumbalai ......  naan unakku verum piratchinaigalaidhan kodutheyn ...

idhuvarai naan unakku pannina kastangalukkku ....mannichudunu oru vaarthai la solla mudiyaadhu ...   enakku unnai remba pudikkum ... un sirippu...nee enkitta urimaiyoda pesuradhu ... moreover nithish ah appaa nu sollavechu enna sandhosapaduthunadhu .......idhu ellamey en manasula apdiyeh irukku ...

nee avoid panna aarambichadhum...enakulla ennai nee vittutuu poiduvagra bayamdhan ...   but ippo solren sudhaa ... mulumanasoda solren......ennai vituttu poidu..........  idhukku mela un life la ennala edhuvum problem varaadhu .......

namakulla ini endha uravum vendaam..pasangalai paarthuko ...takecare of urself....idhellam   naan msg la sollura varai unnnai face panna mudiyaadhu.....   idhuku mela unnai samaadhana padutha mudiyaadhu ...ippo unakku rembavey bayam vandhirukkum.....  naan ooruku vandhaalum  unnai paarkkamaten ... Nee free ah life ah paaru ...    idhuvarai ennoda  thollaigalai poruthukittadhu podhum di...

unkooda irundha andha dAys dhan ennoda life la adhigamaana happy ah irundhadhu . ...thenn   ippo adhiga kastathai kodukuradhu nammaloda pirivu ....  I really miss u loosu ...unnai remba remba  kastapaduthitten... enkitta irukura ellaa photos dlt pannniduren ... oru photo irukum...blue saree la....... ...adhumattum naan ooruku varum podhu panniduren.  .... 

udambai paarthukodi...un ninaippu eppavum pogaadhu....but unnai thondharavu pannamaten...

I really really gonna miss u daalu...

I am sorry for everything . .. naan unnai vittu poga vendiya neram vandhudichu...

nee  morn thittum podhu ennaala thanga mudiyaadhu ....so reply pannamaaten ...enakku andha thairiyam illai.......

i love you always...nd u will be n my heart forever. takecare chellam...

ippo mulumanasoda solren .... ennai block pannidu looosu...2 days kastama irukkum apram enakku pazhagidum.....

I miss u di .I mis u .I miss u.. byee😢 block now😢😢😢🙏🙏

great cheater

that.. ..ava ivlo naal panathukkaga pazhagirukkaA......  I just want get my money back ....   I remember the movie...  pachchaikili muthhucharam 😎

avlodhaan pola

dp change panna sonne...missing sad dp chang panninaa...   naan apdiyeh sema happy aaneyn...appo paarthu ...masahiro Japan karan call pannaa.. ...avankitta sema sound la hi sonne.. .hey ..enna remba happy ah ..sounds high irukkunu sonnaa.. ..pesittu...

cut pannittu ..avakita chat panninaa ..... posukunnu ...dp unakku illainu sonnaapaaruu ....buk nu irundhuchhhu ....

nyt dhaan...dream la apdi ipdi irundhuchuu ...matter eh nadandhuchu ...ippo naan poren po nu sollitu vandhutten😂 onnu perusa sad laam illai...paarthukalam
...2 days pesaama vitttaaa ...sariyaagidum ...dp
ah paarkaama irukkanum aandavaa

midnyt dreams

loossuu.. luv u di.. unnai hug pannanum pola irukku...  ooruku vandhu unnai hug pannikittey irukkanum pola irukkudi.....

I love you chellam
.... ummaahww .... thapppu thappa manasu thonudhu...mood ah irukkunuu sex video paarthutu irundheyn ... adhula naama rendu perum panra maadhiri mind odudhudi ... i miss u chellam... unkooda irukkanum pola irukkudi .
..... kattipudichuttu ......rendu perum ...irukkii ....i miss u di ... ummaahww  chellaamm .. I kiss u di ... un udambu full ah kiss pannanumdii ...😙😙😙then ....unnoda paadhiya naan kalandhudanum .mm😍😍 mudiyalaidi ... I just want u n my arm ..umnahe.. love you so much loosu

gym time

lazy to go to gym ..... now days work vera very busy illai ... ...edho oru vegathula poi amount kattittu vandhuten. ....😎😉 hmm 30 min poi gym trainer ta pesittu vandhuttenn ...  Tom evng la irundhu join pannikiren nu solliyaachuu.....

work time ..poga..gym la yeh work out pannanum..
confident level increase pannanum . ...physical fit aanaa...stress irukkadhu ...nd also work out panninaa..time pass.. so lonely feel irukkadhu .....  and inimel
edhukkaagavum azha koodadhu .....  indha konja naal la remba azhudhutten .....

ini apdi oru feeling ku addict aaga koodadhu.....   .... hope naan ninaichadhellaam nadandhaa ....again naan pazhayapadi endha worry illaama iruppen ... ... let's see

dinner time.. chicken
  biriyaani is calling ....offf here .... gudnyt to me nd my daaalu 😍 

I don't want to miss her... memories azhiyanum.

  kandippa avalukku en mela love irukuradhai vida bayamdhan vandhurukkum ... adhukku naaney kaaranamagitten.... ..  idhukku mela avalai naan disturb pannamaley irundhadhan avaloda life la happy ah iruppaa ....  ..  epdi ennai avoid panninaalo apdiyeh contniue aagattum .....  avloda indha love la naan fail aagitten ....    ....  ava photos onnu vidaama delete pannitten .... ava happy ah irukkanum ... ..   life la rendu perum paarthukura chance vandhuda koodadhu nu ninaikiren

ava manasula irundha konja love um ippo bayamaa maarirukkum ...

so ava life la naan irundha...enkitta bayathoda dhan pazhaguvaa ...

innoru thadavai ava ennai avoid panradha i  ennaala thaangikka mudiyaadhu ....

...naan avalai konjam konjama marakkanum ...

love feeling eh varakoodadhu ..

avaloda vaazhndha andha happy days ...ini thirumba varaadhu ....

avalai kastapaduthaama irukuradhudhan ... naan ava mela vechurundha paasam unmai aagum

avaloda happy life la vaazhattum..

naan naanaave irundhuttu poren ..

ennoda manasai naan controle pannanum ...

evlo seekiram mudiyumo avlo seekiram marakkanum...

avaloda mugam enakku marandhu pora
  alavukku.....naan maaranum...

and final ah indha blog ah dlt pannidanum...

idhu
ellaam seekiram nadakkanum..

eppo rendu perum marakkuramo..mudinja numbers ah chang pannidanun ...

avaloda ninaippeh varakoodadhu ..😐😐..  

I wanna hug u ..

naama kalyaanam pannikkalaamanu ketka thonudhu...  ippo ava en mela irukura veruppula naan edhu sonnaalum avalukku pidikkadhu ....    atleast ava a.c. number ketkaama irundhaaley podhum..

avasarapattu  indha blog link koduthutten ...  vera vazhiyillai ..ava sincere ah amount return pannanu irukka...so vera vazhi illama link  koduthutten..

indha blog naan avakooda ..avalukkey theriyaama vaazhndhuttu irukuradhu.

ennai marriage pannikuriyaadi.... nee in family kooda..naan en family kooda... 

vendaam ...marupadiyum unnai love panrennu kastapaduthalaidi ....   nee En mela vechurundha veruppai  contniue pannuu ...

enakkaga nee nalla padichu exam eludhanum adhu podhum ...

unnai ini kastapaduthhama irukuradhudhan .... naan unnai love panninadhukku artham
..

i miss u always ...unnai enakku remba pidikkum....

amount return panna numnu ninaichuttu irukkadha pls....apdi nee ketkum podhu enakku seththuralam pola irukku...

exam ku padi di chellam . ...  naan thalli ninnu nee happy ah irukuradhai paarkanum..

I love you..nd miss u ....

pls pls pls .... exam la concentrate pannu...

enakkaagaa ....

mudinja ennai mrg panniko ...

I love you di ... am always crying di

unnai vittuttu ippo azhugaiyaa varudhu ...pasangalukku vera doubt..yen ipdi irukkarunu ...ennai meeri azhugai varumpodhu ...bathroom poi face wash panni manage panren...... thaniyaa irukkanum pola irukku ...... mudiyalaidi ...naan epdi 6 month varai manage panna porennu theriyalai ...  ahdukulla nee ennai veruthupoi marandhuttu  vaazha aarambichuduva ....

naan unkooda irundhaa ..unakku kastam dhaan ... naan unnai ninaichukittey vaazndhuduven .........   oru naal  unakku indha unmaiellam theriyum....  naan kastapattaavadhu kettavanaavey irundhudanumdi ....

I miss u chellammm . ..... needhaandi en life... but unakku naan sumaiyaa irukkakoodadhu ..adhukkaga   unnai naan pirinjudhaan irukkanum....

eppoavum unnai ninaichukittey iruppen ... I love you di ... I miss u daalu..

i want to drop my tears  n ur feet .....😭😭

ennoda uyiraa ninaicha unnai kastapaduthittuu irukken ..konja naal la sariyaagidum... I love you daalu....

I miss u di

unakku innaikku exam ...wish panna kooda mudiyalai....seththuralaam pola irukku......  azhudhukittey irukken ...unkooda sandai pottu pirinjuttaa konja naal la ellaam marandhuduvennu ninaichaa...ippodhaandii enakku kastamaa irukku ... ..ennaala mudiyalai ...  I don't know how to accept ....nee illaama vaazhavum mudiyaadhu...  unnoda love ah kevalapaduthittano nu thonudhu....  ..... mudiyalaidi chellam ... unnai kastapaduthittu ovoru nodiyum saavalaam pola irukku.....  ..

enakku amount koduthuranumnu nee ninaichuttu iruppadi ....sathiyamaa enakku vendaammdii ...     unkooda vera maadhiri sandai potrukkanumdi... 

I love  you di .. nee illaama ennaala vaazhamudiyalai .....  6 month ku appuram indha unmai unakku theriyumdi....  appo nee ennai purinjukuva ...adhuvarai epdiyvaadhu kastapattuu vaazhanum ...  nee illaama ..unnoda ninaivugalai vechukittu..vaazhanum.....  unnai hurt pannadhukku mannichuko ..enakku vera vazhi theriyalaidi ..😏  I hope u will be happy without my disturbence😑

takecare daalu ... I love you somuch..nd miss u a lot now.

goodnyt di

naan unnai hurt pannittu indha 24 hrs la ... seththutttu irukkendii ....but enna panradhu .. enakku kastamaa irundhaalum ..... unnai disturb pannii daily nee ennai verukkurahdukulla ...  moththamaa veruthutta ellaam sariyaagidum di.......  unnoda vaazhkaila nee ennai marandhudu..happy ah iru .... konja naalaikku ennai kettavanaavey ninaichuttu irupppadi......  paravalla.....   

En manasula nee eppavum irundhuttu iruppa ....      lifelong nee enakkuu chellamdhaaandi ... ...  I really miss u di ....

u changed  ur whatsapp status ....like
 
man cant live without love ....  yes  I cant live  without u... but now days I become disturb to u... so ellaathukkum serthu oru mudivu katttitenn ...

be happpy daalu ..... dont worry about money ...........  unakku naan ac tharamaatten ....   ...

miss u di looosu

remba kastama irukkudii....... unnai hurt pannnittuu ... nee epdi feel pannuvannu yosichaa seththralaam pola irukkuu.....

inimel nee ennai ninaikkakooodadhu ... ennoda thondharavu illaama nalla iukkanumdi...  naan unnai thondharavu pannakoodadhu...  ..

amount ah kodukkanumnu kavalaipadaadhadi.....sathiyamaa apdi oru ennam  enakku illai...

namakulla oru sandai  varanum.....
avlodhaan..... 

idhellam konja naalaikku piragu unakku theriya varum chellam....

En uyir di nee....unnai kastapaduthiten....6 month aagum podhu...unakku indha unmai theriyumdii...adhukullaa nee illaama naanum.....naan illaama neeyum  vaazha aarambichuduvom......  

nee En mela vechurundha love  kaanamaa poganum ...avlodhaan...

unakku endha kastamum varakoodadhunu  help pannen ....  adhai vechey unnai hurt panni ennai  verukKa vechuttendii......   

i miss u dii ....... ...hope u will be hPpyy😚

mudiyalaidi

saapda kooda pidikkalaidi ...

edho periya thiyaagi maadhiri unnai hurt panninaa..sandai vandhu pirinjidalaamnu  hurt pannen.... but ippo ...unnai hurt panniten . .nee epdi feel pannittu iruppannuu   manasu full ah ranama irukkudii . ... Nee en chelllamdi ...  unakku onnunnnaa ennaala thaangikka mudiyaadhu ...  but naaney.....  I miss u di chellam . ..unmela enakku endha kovamum varaadhu ...kovam vandhaa azhadhaaan thonum....  .... ippo manasai  kalllaaana maadhiri irukku ...nee epdi naan illaama vaazhapora...naan epdi nee illaama vaazhaporennu theriyalai ..........    but  nee ennai verukkanum... adhukkaga edhuvenaalum panna ready ...

I love you di ...ennoda kaadhal ennodavey pogattum ...  ... .. I hope u will be happy....😢😢😢am just crying di ...i miss u daalu

feeling bad

... paavam ava inneram remba feel pannikittu irundhuruppaa..... .. konja naal la veruthutta marandhuduvaa ...

ennaala avalukku endha thondharavum irukkkadhu..... pogattum...  En kooda irundhaa ava sandhosamaa irukkamaatta ... . ...  i love you di

miss u di

over ah hurt pannittano nu feel ah irukku .....   enakku kastamaa irukkudii..  ... 

nee illaama  ..naan vaazhanumna vera vazhi theriyalai ... ... naan unnai marandhutta unakku unmai purinjidum

I miss u daalu ...

naan unnai marakkura varai ...naan kettavanaa irundhudhaan aaganumdi ...

adhukku nee ennai verukkanum

kandippaaa nee amount ready panninaalum vaanga maaten..

just nee ennai verukkanum .. naanum unnai marakkanum ....avlodhaan.. adhukkaaga naan yosichudhaan 

indha unmaigal theriyaamaley pogattum ...  

unnai vitttu poitu irukkendiii... 

ennaala unnai hurt pannra maadhiri kooda nadikka mudiyalaidi ....kastamaa irukku... vera vazhiillai..
...
ennai nee marakkanum...

elllaamey over di ....  Nee happpy ah irrukkanum.....family friends nu ...

naan unnai vittu  remba thoooram poga poren

unnai marakkamudiyalai.... neeyaavadhu ennai veruthudu

she said feeling bad

.. enkitta ac details ketkiraa...60000 dhan kodukka mudiyumnu solraa..

podi loossu yaarukkudi venum ..

unnai  venumney  hurt panradhukkeyy naan sethutta maadhiri irukku.. .. idhellam unakku puriyaadhudi...

naan unnai vittu rembathooram poganum .....unakku thondharavaa irukkakoodadhu...
..
last ah konja naatkal   naaan unakku thondharavadhan irundhiruken ..ennaala unnoda happy life disturb aagavendam

enakku azhagaana love ah koduthaa...adhu podhum

kandippaa money ah return vaanganumngra ennam illaidi ...

orunaal unakku indha unmaiyellam theriyum.. ...
..

ippodhaikku naan kettavana irukkanum ... so naan unnai hurt panniyeh aaganum..

I love you nd gonna misss uu..

I hurt her ...bcos of her happy ..nd let her hate me more

I am worried about her...naan avalai venumney hurt pannadhukku ....epdi feel pannittu iruppaa.. ....

avalukkku naan disturb ah irukka koodadhu... and moreover ...ini naan avakitta love kaaga kenja koodadhu ... ..naan ava mela vechurundha paasam .... ippo avalukku vesamaa irukkum....   ippo naan pannina hurt la mulusaa ennai veruththuttuu ... avalukku pudicha vaazhkaiya free mind ah vaazhattum....

ennnoda kadhal  enakulllayeh endrum vaazhndhu kondirukkum...

aval ennai mulumanasoda love panninaa andha days ... eppavum en nenjilayeh irukkum .... .
.
ippodhaikkku naan kettavanaa nadandhudhan aaganum..

avalai hurt pannum podhu..manasu valikudhu...but enakku vera vazhi theriyalai... 

ava ennai vittu mulusaa vilagi sandhosama irukkanum ...

avalukku naan kodutha amount ....
ava return panna try pannum podhu kandippaa ennai veruththukittey iruppaa ....... yes...

manasula valiyoda avalai mulusaa ennai vitttu piriya vechuttenn...

ava eppavum en manasulayeh iruppaa ....

naan mattum ava manasula otu kettavanaavey irundhuttu poren....

naan eppo mulusaa avalai marakkarano.....

appuram indha unmaiyellaamm theriyattum...

ippodhaikku naan kettavana contniue panna poren... with full of pain ...

i love you daalu... ennai mannichudu....naan unkitta blackmail panramaadhiri pesi hurt pannadhukku...

ennaikkaavadhu nee idhai therinjukkum podhu ... ennai paththiii purinjukkuva ... May be miss pannalaam .........  but apppooo naan unnai vittttuu rembathooram poiruppendi....  

unnai veruththuta maadhiri nadikka kooda mudiyalai .... kastamaa irukku...

nee enmela vecha paasam  kurainjirukkalaam.......

naan unnai en manasukulllayeh vechuruppen....naan seththaaalum ...
un ninaivugal maaraadhu ... naan un mela vechurundha...  kaadhal endrum azhiyaadhuuu ...

I love you sweetheart.......ummaahww ...

ini naan un life la varakoodadhu ...unnoda happy kaaga ... naan vilagittuu irukken.

miss u daaaluuu...

new morning

thinking about last nyt...    3 beer...and ava ennai kenja vechadhu...avoid panninadhu.....  and ava ennai vittupoga aarambichaa ...so naan avalai disturb pannakoodadhunaa  I should end here.... so so hardly i did......  ava mela naan vechurundha andha kaadhal ...i can't forget .

I am back who I was

last 1 week she was ignoring me ..nd worried about her friends....i almost getting high depressed ............i feel like ashamed about myself.....  naan epdi pesuneennuu theriyalai......... uyiraa ninaichuttuu irundha avalai naan over ah pesi hurt pannniteenn.......   naan edhaiyum ethirpaarkaaama senja help ah .........chaiii..... I should not talk likethat  ..but...  ava ennai avamaanapaduthi...azhavechuu..kevalapaduthii.....    can't tolerate

naan  izhandha thanmaanathukkkaga
...   pesitten...but ava enakku eppo amount return panraalo ...   avaloda account layeh potruven.... bcos...naan avamela vechurundha love......

ava venumnaa ennai care pannaama irundhirukkalaam
....but naan avadhaan ulagamnu  ninaichu vaazhndhuttu irundheyn..

anyhow...naan pesinadhala ava kandippa hurt aaagiruppaa....

I feel bad...but I felt like refreshed ..ava ennai love pannaama poirukkalaam...but.
naan avalai ennai vida adhigamaa avalai love pannen

niraya naal ...naan avalukkaga azhudhirukke

andha vali ennai pesa vechuduchuu..

i am sorry loossu unnai hurt panninadhuku..incause  nee enakku amount return panninaa.
..adhu unnnoda account dhan pogum....
I don't know about ur love.. . but I know about myself ..

worst nyy

how she  can avoid me likethis... ...

no I need to get out of this fucking affection.... she said she will go chennai lastnyyt....  I was waiting for a msg that she is leaving ....whole nyt...i felt like crying... nd depressed ..msging her...no response .... even not a  msg that am going to chennai now..chat  u tonarow
..

I went sleep arround 3 am ..after a hr i open whatsapp   ..she just asked causally like ..ennahdu enaachuu... no dp ...i think she blocked me....i send sms... then called ..she said am n chennai ... ndthen disconnect the call .....

cam n whatsapp .. nd saying reasons...coushin was using her mobile... nd she listning songs...bla bla.....  pesanumnaa epdi venaalum pesirukkalaam..

am not in her heart..

2 days ah ennoda nilamaiya paarthu en bro ..friend ta sollii ...avan yen ipdi edhaiyo parikodutha maadhiri irukkaan ...enna problem nu kelu paarkka sagikkalai ...edhu sonnaalum engayo paarthuttu irukkaan  nu kavalai ..

avalukku naan oru thollaiyaa maarittenn

there is no love..

finally i said..

naan unakku msg panninaa unn seruppaala moonjila adi nu ... yes...

i am not well...

last few days..we didn't talk as well ... she just talking like a stranger   ....i can feel thay she don't have crush on me......  yesterday I fight with her..... ....my mistakes is that ..thinking like she is not interested with me ... ...yesterday nyt i went car with beer.. chatting with her continuously... she didnt reply ...am tottally broken nd crying...

.
I was feel veryweek
...saapda thonalai ...car la aludhukittu irundheyn...i think 3 am varai thoongalai ...then sleep a while..5 am wakeup.....
... morng avaloda jio number online paartheyn ...with her dp pic...naan msg pannadhum friend yaaro pesuraanga...she said...dont chat her mother s here likethat....  I stopped.. .i trying to call her ...she didn't reply...

afternoon came nd shouting why u did msg me....then ltr she went to clg  for pay fees...

she want some money urgent ly...

enkitta avlo illai...my bro have some money to go to hospital for tomarow...i took from him ...then send her .. Tom morng arrange panni koduthukalam..

enakkuu ipppo anaadhaiya feel panren ....

ennoda family la nalla relationship illai ...veruppudhan irukku .. I have to pay .2.25 laks... mom asking always about it. .no worry paarthukaalm...

ippo enakulla irukira bayam ...ennaikavdhu oru naal ava ennai vittu poiduvaa
  .... ippo paavapattu pesittu irukkaa..... ennaala mudinja varai avalukku help pannanum...avaloda familiyoda happy ah irukkanum...
I think my family la mrg life break aagapogudhu....  

ennaala mudiyalai ..saagalam
pola irukku...  ennoda family  ah kastathula vittutuu
poida koodadhunuuu thaangittu irukken ...

kadanai adaichuttu...ennoda anna ku lorry business ready panni koduthuttu......ennoda life happy ah illainna.. ..yaarukkum
theriyaama poi engayaavadhhu sethuranum....

vaazhkai full ah yemaandhu poi ipppolaam... bayam ahigamaagudhu..

ennai purinjikka yaarumey illai...en pinnaadi varra ponnungalai avoid pannidren......  ippo enakkunnu
irukura en daalu... she completely changed....1 percent love kooda illai....avoid panna mudiyaama pesuraa
....one day she will avoid me...  onnu ...adhai naan thangikkanum ....

apdi illainna.. .sethuranum ..ennaala mudiyalai...am tottally broken.....

she said she will go to chennai tonyt...

I thought she will msg me...but still no msg ...anyhow..i hope she will be fine...

enkitta edhuvum illai.. .

ennoda life enga pogapogudhu nu theriyalai....

saavai nokkiyaa....illai...sandhosathai nokkiyaa ....

ennoda saavu yaarukkum theriyaama poidanum.....

last 3 days no sleep.. not eat gud..

I need to get out of this mind.. enakku bayamaa irukku ..naan edhuaavadhu panniduvanonuu...

bye now......

with tears   unlucky guy.

I love you loosu

i  felt  worried..nd thinking that i would  liek to get out ur problems all the way .. and I want u  be happy even with ur hus ..there r few girls who is wsiting for my msg but ...i ignore them..nd coming behind u.. cos I love you morethan anything . ...i will be love u always...i hope after i clear ur problems u wl be happy ...ummaahww loossu gudnyt   😍😍

am worried

someone called her in midnyt now  ..nd she doubts on me... I think better  leave her .. i don't think she love me like before ..... I don't want to force her to love me. let's see for few days...if she continue to avoid me ... we need to go on our way...
..  gudnyt ..

after long time  i came back to start to write here ...becos it's reliefs my stress with her..

dreams of u

last few days ah blog eludhalai ...

tottally upset... thinking no way of to reach u ...  nd feeling worried cos of ur ignore on me...

am always online n whatsapl to get it msg ..nd watching u if u online u will msg me....u always online every 1 hr..  but i have no any msgs ...yaarkitteyum pesa pidikkalai....
...  some time wait pannitu irukuradhu loosuthanama irukku ... vilagavum
mudiyaama . ..un manasula naan irukkeynaanu theriyaama ...i lost my happy without u ....last 2 days ah online varalai ...   nee online la irundhum enakku msg pannaama irukuradhu kastama irukku..adhaan online varalai...

lastnyt we met n dream....  unnoda street la nyt la onna serndhu poguramaadhiri nd getting n a car nd start kissing me nd saying nee illaama kastamaa irukudaa nu solra maadhiri .... suddenly i awoke nd ... feeling miss u a lot .. ..  I miss u di ...i love you so much ....

but I won't force u to love me...i won't beg u to talk to me....unakku pidikkum podhu pesu... unnoda manasula oru oraththula iruppennu namburen ...  unmela naan vechchurukira love konjam kooda kuraiyila... every min u r in my thoughts ....i don't know after 10 days u will talk to me ...or avoid me...   but   I will leave it in ur choice ......   Nee pesaama poitaalum  unnai ninaichukitu ..unnai disturb pannaamalaey irundhuduven....  melum melum unnai disturb panni veruppaakida koodadhu..yes .. 

it's ur choice... hope u nd ur family is fine .... nd wish u to be happy always. takecare loosu.

rainy day

back after 10 days ..... I was busy these days nd didn't write my blog ...   nd today raining ... nd daalu yesterday chat panninaa....  nowadays u don't feel like missing her.. ..  sometimes having feel of her ... most of time I spending my time n work ..nd chatting with friends..singing songs.oops  ofcourse..sleeping......😂 I think am getting back to my normal life....yehhhhh ✌💪   coming days won't get hurt ..nd being n limite with everyone is safe i think ..... bcos those days proved it that evevrythig is not permanent in the world nd ...expecting much is the key for disappointment in our life .. .

so .. trying  to be happy.... cheersss 😎 hope everything gonna be fine.

unforgettable things n mind

can't accept myself bcos....  still i am expecting that she will be back which is not gonna happen....  but avalai epovaadhu online la paarkirahdu ltl bit happy for me...   I don't want to disturb her nd  force to talk to me... if she still
love me ... she can talk ..but she is not interested  to keep n touch ....   I  cant accept other girls who r flirting with me..she s n my heart ..no one can replace her ....     ...  ava  varamaaley poittaalum
naan ipdiyeh irundhuduven....  nd I never forget her n mylife.

won't disturb her

lazy evening after a busy day ...

yesterday she ask me ...nyt la online la busy pola nu ...😂 how can I tell her that i missing a lot ...  ...  ....  dontknow she too missing me ...   now she s online but I don't msg her....  nd disturb her .. I dont want to disturb her at all.. .  let her to be happy ....  hope like this distances will be forever .... ..    I dont want force her to talk to me...like a kid .... if she talk i will .... otherwise i won't..    but i always missing her a lot

😂 someone called

today morng she msged me...nd asking have a call at but 1.30 ...nee pannuniyaanu? how can she think that i will be called her at nyt......  I love her a lot but I never think to create problem for her...  nd mams return eppo nu kettu adhuvarai msg kooda pannavenaamnu sollaninaicheyn ........ I think he has to be there few more months with his family to bring happiness ....  she need peaceful and stress reliefs.....  he only can give that to her....   be happy dear.....  .. i pray for ur family to be healthy nd happy ...

she is back..

after a long gap ... she msgd me today .. m happy ...but heard she was n hospital ..😐anyhow ..i feel better  after she s back .... still my love is alive ... ..😚😚I love you loosu ...god bless her.. I want her to be happy nd healthy ... god bless her..😍😍

Friday off

sleeping watching movies.....nd remembering yesterday nyt..

yesterday I was waiting u online..yes..evning  la remba neram whatsapp la online la....  enakku oru doubt...mams return poittaaro ..avarkudhan call pannitu irukkuiyonu..   ennai controle panna mudiyaama

epdi irukinga  nu msg panniten..

Nee reply pannalai....

enakku yendaa msg panninomnu aagiduchu...

and many time u came online ... I just watching u only.....

oruvelai neeyum check pannuviyonu doubt ....so till 11.30 ur time I was online waiting for ur msg .......

u didn't msg ..... aftrthat till now  u r not online...

unnoda situation ennaanu theriyalai...

do you love me? or forgot me?

if i know the answer i may go on my way ....

manasula ippavum oru aasai....

epovaadhu nee enakku msg pannuva...

enkitta pesa try pannura some girls kitta ennaala pesa mudiyalai.....bcos .....  manasu full ah .. Nee mattumdhaandi..

konja naal love pannaalum...... I proved what s love.....my badluck ....ennoda behaviour la ellaamey  thalaikeelaa poiduchuu....

but am loving u always ..

and

waiting for you looosu ... miss u

thinking of u

I am struggling to pass the days ..nee ennoda illaadha indha naatkal ...sema kastama irukku...  un manasula naan irukkenangradhu theriyaama....  unnaiyeh ninaichukittu irukiradhu kastama irukudhu ... unnai marakka mudiyalai...

unakku naan disturb ah irukura feeling ah koduthutten pola..nee ennai verukkura alavukku naan unnai pesi kastapaduthittu ..ippo naan enna panradhunu theriyaama thadumaarittu irukken.🙂😑

tense morng

yesterday was busy....nd evning u came online n whatsapp remba neram online la irundha ....naan unakku msg type pannittu dlt panniten..... naan enga unakku msg panniduvanonu bayam....konja neram block pannivecheyn....  naan msg panni un hus paarthaarnaa...

moreover naan un manasula innum irukkenaanu theriyalai .... my question is ...  enakku yen or msg kooda pannalai nee ? nijamaa enna marandhuttiyaa by yesterday evng over upset.....u came online 11 at nyt also ...  dontknow what to do ....  ennaikaavadhu neeya pesuvangra nambikkai kurainjukittey varudhu...

feeling happy

u know what I did today.....   I saw u came online n whatsapp....nd I started to typing but i didn't send u.. mams irundha enna panradhu..so only..  but u came online many time.. ...i just watching u n soma nd whatsapp...  it's make me happy ...i add myself n fb ... I miss u di..

6.3.17 worsday

yesterday I was depressed ..u  were not online wholeday till evning 7.30.. I was checking u n whatsapp nd soma..then I dlt ur ur number..that u will come n soma nd check my status soma  ..that I asked u to give me a call ...but till today morng u r not there...really I miss u..... am waiting for ur msg or call... ...if u not msg for 2 days more... it meant u forgot me...... adhukappuram naan unnai ninaikavey koodadhu....  Nee clg pogumpodhu kooda call panna mudiyadhaa....  oru msg kooda pannamudiyalaila......  be happy ... i don't want  u ...i don't want u....😣😑😐  po ...nee yendi en life la vandha....ennaala  unnai thavira edhaiyum  yosikka mudiyalai......25 days aagudhu..nee pesi...takecare...avlodhaan ...po ... i hate myself to miss u.....i hate you..

online checking nd status changing 😂

actually  last 2 days u r not online n soma...so I want to know that u also checking  me or  not ...i blocked u n whatsapp ... so u may come nd check in soma... yes.. u came 2..3 times n soma..   but I don't know that u really came to see my profile ....later I unblocked u .but I thinking u also miss me .....  and  I open ur fb and I add my id ...in 5 min i un friend it.. Bcos i want to know also will u send me add request or not...  am blocking nd unblocking to make you to miss me only ..it doesn't meant that i hate u...

am waiting that day when u gonna msg  me nd say I miss u ....  Nee thirumba varuviyaanu theriyalai....   oruvelai neeyaa  enakku msg pannii i miss u da nu sollura andha naalukkaga waiting di daalu....  oruvelai nee msg eh pannalainna... kandippaa naanum pesaamaley irundhuduven.......   bcos... naan unakku disturb ah irundhurukendra feel innum pogalai.. nd nee ennai veruthutta  un manasula naan illai ngra feel enakku irukkuu...  idhellaam poganumnaa.  nee enkitta pesanum...am waiting nd..  I always miss u...nd i always checking ur online
...  goodnyt chellam miss u..    off now.

lazy morning

sleepy  mode😂..came to site ..

  thinking of her ..  inneram ava ennai marandhurupaa...  njaabagam varaadhu.. naan disturb panna virumbalai..... mind thiking to talk to her.. heart says to let her to be happy ...  bcos..kadaisiyaa pesumpodhu ..ava ennai avoid panna try pannadhu njaabagam irukku... so again nd  again why to disturb nu...  viruppam  illainna vilagi  poidradhudhan
  better nu thonudhu.....   I think i am right .

nee ennai mulusa marandhuruppa .... ooorukku vandhaa kooda avalai paarka koodadhu nu  ninaikiren...   ini
avalai maadhiri oru love feeling ah yaarum kodukka poradhilla.... and I don't want to flirt with others.......enough......

happy day contniues... 

friday

boring day... have went to work in the afternoon.... back home ..listning songs....😂

weekend

suffering cos of cold

back home form work..relaxing ... as usual sometime checking u r online or not ...  nd I got imo vcall from dv... didn't answer..then she send photos n watsap... got calls.... I dont want to reply.... bcos ... ippo en manasula ellor mela oru veruppudhaan varudhu😂 dontknow why ...but I like it.

I miss you loosu

I miss u daalu... New ninaikkalaam unnai vittuttu naan sandhosama  irukken nu.. ..  en life la naan adhigama kastapaduradhu nee ennoda pesaadha indha naatkaldhaandi.... unnai avlo pidikkumdi....i miss u daalu ...i love you..  

happy evning

back home..
relaxing..listning songs..
thinking to buy laptop and start learning programming languages..... so I can manage myself to be busy ...
..no money ...after salary only..😂
am often checking ur online status n soma nd whatsapp...😂  u came online n whatsapp.... i wont msg u...  I type msg nd dlt it manytime 😂..goodnyt takecare.

I miss you

I want to talk to u now ...but dontknow ur situation also ..nee pesuviyaanu kooda theriyaadhu...  ennaala unakku problem vandhudumonu bayam...msg panna kooda bayam..  but always am checking  ur online Status..  adhu onnudhan ippdhaikku ennaala mudinjadhuu......  I miss u loossu.... do u miss me?    nee ennai miss pannirundha..enakku msg panniruppalla.. 🙄

same time online ..😂

  morng morng was tired to wake-up ..went bathroom n sleepy mood ...bcos  of the drops which i took lastnyt for cold......  my time is passing with watching movies..facebook..

today arround 8.15..i just check u whatsapp u were online...n min u went offline... and I checked n soma ...goddamn u came online...suddenly I felt like u also checking me .... or don't know that u may   came to check ur msgs..

I unblock u n whatsapp now ..

when i miss u badly i block u makes me cool like u didnt avoid me..i did ..   it's sillymind na..  i dontknow how long like this.. .  have a great day.. 

tired of thinking

gudevng to me

it was a tired day today....oopss ... don't have my lunch ..only juice ..

I unfriend u myself n ur facebook.. bcos..i always checking u that online r not..so I want to avoid it bcos . u are not there to think me ....   now almost 16 days...u didn't me a single msg .... am tired of waiting for ur msg.... ..its shows like u forgot me completly ...  adhaan ...whatsapp la block..fb la un friend.. . .... but manasula u r there n strong position.... epdi idhula irundhu veliya varuvennu theriyalai.....

now i remember one thing that u told me like.... 

airport pora varai pesuven..nd  mams veetla illadhappo...phone  panrennu... 

kandippaa nee ninaichaa enaku msg pannalaam...clg pogumpodhu... but u r not say a hi also...

anywayyy... idhaan life  but unnoda indha pirivu ...idhuvarai naan feek pannadha alavukki depress la vitrukku... epdi recover aavennu theriyalai..

reached home....need some rest.. bye now. 

feeling better day

oppss.. forget to say about yesterday .. ...was raining here....heavy rain..i left site early nd danger driving n rain..but was beautiful... then went hospital ...got a injection 😂 nd pharmacy taking medicines then came home .. are dinner nd 3 tablets.. cold tonic..drops..then slept early cos of medicines effect.......i blocked her n whatsapp n nyt was feeling better to sleep😂😂 i want to forget everything is nnmy mind related to me nd her...its a big challenge now ..

nd today morng.....

I could  not wakeup ...was difficult to open eyes...  when i awoke.. I check mobile  i saw a notification like...su***sam* send you request n Facebook . .....  I just open the notifications...but nothing there....i think my imagine was likethat.....dontknow really.....bcos I was so sleepy..mi mind thinking likethat ?may be.

then as usual at site...

was chatting nd cmnds n fb.. today I didn't Chexk her online that u are online or not ...bcos lastnyt i blocked ..

I was thinking that why I need to be like kid's.. .. she left me  nd dontcare me..so better i should forget her likethat ...

probably i will not be thinking u again.. whenever u r in my thought an getting myself to be busy at work.. talking to friends...ect ...

hope soon will forget everything n get back myself n to normal life ...

now dinner time..gonnaa have my dinner...then medicines  for cold.. pills for sleep...hope everything will be all right..

signing off now..goodnyt to me... bubyeeeeeee

sick again

site la...whole day car la sitting....listening songs...unnoda photos...pur memories ...naama pesinadhu
ellaam ninaichukittu...veliya raining ...

semmaiyaa miss panren...

enakku en mela sema kovama varudhu
...naandhaan un situition therinjum...thappu thappaa purinjikittu unnai torcher panniten....nee ennai verukiradhukku kaaranam
naandhaan....

everything happens bcos of my mistakes ..

I am sorry di...  ini nee ennai marandhuduvanu theriyum....

unnai marakka mudiyaama remba kastamaa irukku... unnoda  mugam kan munnaadi vandhu disturb pannudhu...

nee mrng 6.31 ku appuram online eh varalai....... 
 
enakku ippo irukira orey happy  ..nee eppo online varuvaa nu paarthu sandhosapadradhu..pesalainaalum... edho manasuku aarudhal ah irukku...

daily 100 times aavadhu nee nee online la
iruppiyaanu check pannittu ...dontknow .....naan eppo maaruvennu ....

nee irundha idaththula yaaraiyum  ninaikka kooda mudiyalai.....

Atchu ku sariyaagiduchaa ...nith epdi irukkaan...idhai
kooda ketka
mudiyalai.....

enakku  2 days ah fever   ...sariyaa thoongaama ..eyes reddish..thanni
vandhuttu irukku...evning hospital poittu..

sleeping pills podanum...

naan seekiram unnai marandhuttu...pazhayapadi endha  expect illaama... vaazhanumnu aasaipadure ..

I miss u di..unnoda love ah marakkavey mudiyalai ....

Sunday mrng

  am very tired of cold nd fever..  came to site nd taking rest n car...

no strength n heart nd body..
my health s getting very weak day by day..

ooruku poidalaamanu irukku..evning hospital poganum...

empty ah irukura maahdiri irukku....

tired

mudiyalai... cold infection.. throat infections...eyes r tired.....mentally fucking tiredddd.... seththralam pola irukku...
sariyaa saapdaama..thoongaama...what the fuck is happening to me... I hate myself. ...😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

sick

fever nd cold...thyroid high ah irukku...

not n normal..thatswhy getting angry..stress... hormone imbalance.......work ku pogalai...vazhakkampola.. nee msg pannuviyaanu adikadi checking.. ..sleepless.tired.. dontknow..eppo ellaam sariyaagum theriyalai... ...   

nee vittuttu pona vali rembavey baadhichirukku...  hope seekiram naan unnaimaadhiriyeh marandhuttu..normal life ku chang aaganumnu vendikkiren..

today namma oorla thiruvizha ..oorla irundhaa sight  aavadhu adichiruppen..😂

miss u...

sleep time

hey loossu...

today off ...room la..singam 3..nd hollywood movies paartheyn... songs ... and  fb la niraya posts ... innoru fb id unnoda fb la add panniruken.. nee adhu naandhaananu kandupidikkiriyaa nu paarkanum. ...

promise ah ippodhaandi...love na ..ennaa..love feel nd pain  na ennaanu theriyudhu.... ..  kadaisi varai unkooda vaazhanumdi....   ennoda love  enakku mattum dhaanu thonudhu...

idhellaam. epdi unakku puriya veikiradhunu theriyalai...

indha 2 months la ennai marandhuduviyonu bayam....

unakki ooruku varumpodhu nee aasaiyaa keytta chain vaangitharanum... nd ring ... 😚😚😚  ...i love you di loosu..

orunaal ennoda love unakku puriyanum....  unnai endha alavukku love panrennu... 

enkitta irukura oru bad hobbit.. kovapaduradhu .......  nee enga ennai vittutu vera yaarkittayavadhu pesuviyonu bayam.....i really miss u dii ..goodnyt daalu.. 😍😍

Friday fresh

happy morng...

  Friday off ..thursday nyt u came online nn whastapp nd soma..also n fb ...u didnt msg me... ....  kandippaaa nee ninaichaa  enakku call pannirukka mudiyum..but unakku istam illai...
naan kovapattu pesinadhu elllam unnai ennai verikka vechchurukum...... nee ennai avoid panninadhudhan ennoda kovaththuku kaaranam.....  anyhow nee happy ah irundhaa  adhu podhum

am always thinking about u... unnai konjam kooda marakkamudiyalai...

nee illadha ovoru naalum ennaala samaalikka mudiyalai..  en manasu unakku puriyumaa ennaanu theriyalai.. 😂i miss u daalu...

orunaal idhellaam unakku puriyum... nd u wil come back.. I hope so..

I love you loosu.

soma

oh my god...by mistake i msg u n soma....i was typed hoi 3 days before...nd didn't send   ..now soma la open pannum podhu..nee online la irukiyaanu check pannen...by mistAke msg send panniten.....enna panradhunu theriyalai

feeling empty

site la irukken...saapda thonalai..  I'm njaabagam adhigama aagudhu ...

unakku call panna number Dail pannen ..but vendaamnu vittuten..nee thaniyaa illainna.. .ennaikaavdhu nee msg or call pannunga nu waiting.. ... 21st tuesday 9 pm ku nee nee whatsallonline la irundha..adhukkappuran
nee 2 days ah kaanom.... I think u changed ur number ..am always checking u .......  unnai remba miss panren.. 

call or msg panninaa..  innum adhigama veruththuduviyonu bayam..

yesterday clinic poirundheyn...

blood test results la.. thyroid  veryhigh... medicines contniue panna sonnaanga...

manasu tired...health s  not well ..
naan kovapattu pesiyeh unnai nogadichuttanonu feel ah irukku..

nee eppovaadhu pesuvangra  ennam kurainjittu varudhu...

enkooda kadaisi varai varuva..vittutu poida maattennu nee sonna.....

ennoda behaviour unnai vilaga vechchuduchhu..

pesavum mudiyalai..pesaama irukkavum mudiyalai.... i dont know  what to do...

un manasula ..naan irukkengra nambikkai poiduchu..

un manasula naan irundhaa inneram  nee enkitta pesiruppa ....hnn...unnai disturb panna virumbalai....hope u always fine...

takecare ...i miss u daalu.

distances

hi gudmrng ...

chill weather...

sleepy mood ..

I often checking ur online status in ..whatspp..soma.
Facebook...  ..last nyt u were online around  10.30 ur time...  then til nw n the mrng u r not online ...i miss u badly..

what about atch? is she fine?...  unakku oru msg or call kooda panna thonalai la....

hmm be happy

rainy day

at site..very cold climate ..cludy nd rainy .....manasula unnoda nninaippu.. .

msg pannalaamaa venaamaa.......unakku disturb ah irundhaa...  ..  still I remember that ....u told n sms ...

'Unaku vera thikingye ilaiya epo paru ethavathu sollikittu olunga poitu na atchayaku sarchary panna vera hospital ku treatment panna vanthurukan so ne ena vena nenaichiko na ini unkita pesura mari ila kevala paduthama poitu' ......

and also ennai avoid panna nee sonna reasons .......

chat pannaa... reply pannaama online la ...

call pannaakooda cut panninadhu....

veetla irundhaalum....  call panna cut pannitu ...oru msg kooda pannadhadhu

moththathula ...  naan un manasula illaingra ninaippu......

iniyum
unakku ennai pidikkalaingradhai
    niraya time sollaama sollitta...

idhu ellaam ninaikkum podhu ..unakku msg pannakoodadhu nu solludhu...

vilagiyeh irukken...  appovaadhu un manasula eppovaadhu...en ninaippu varum..... adhu podhum enakku..

....i miss u daalu.

தொல்லை  ஒழிந்தது  என்று அவளும்...

இதயம் தொலைந்து போனது என்று நானும்

கவிழ்ந்து போன படகு போல் என் காதல்....

missing feel disturbs me

yesterday evng  went to clinic to give blood test.. .
then saaptu slept ...

today morng wake-up then came to site......sincr yesterday i wanted to text u ..
when u saw u fb..whatsapp...soma ...

incause if u dont like ...?adhaan nammalai vendaamnu avoid panravangakitta epdi pesuradhunu thayakkamaa irukku....

paarkalaam..eppovadhu nee msg panninaa ...

enakku ulla irukkira orey oru kelvi...

nijamaa ennai veruththuttiyaa??

feeling missing

unnai marakka mudiyalai...innaiku in njaabagam adhigama irukku....  unnaala oru call kooda panna mudiyalai la .....

morng

goodmrngg ...

chill morng . .driving..nd site work..

yesterday was busy  .3 am airport...yo send off sis.. then site....evning n clinic ..for thyroid checkup...  putting kadalai with a malayali nurse😂 i asked her mobile number
..she won't... again innaiku try pannanum today blood test ku poven..😂

lastnyt seekiram thoongitten...1 week ah sariyaa thoongalai...

hmm.. sometime i check ur whatsapp nd say  u have been online ..

I don't want to msg u.....nee ennai evlo veruthuruppa nu last konja naal therinjuduchu......

innum konja naal suththamaa marandhuttuu naan naanaa vaazhanumnu aaasaipaduren..

ennai pidikaadha oruthhukitta naan kenjittu irundhurukken...😂😂😂..

busy day

9.30 pm here
a..i was very busy today. much tired of driving

. preparing luggages to send with sis.
 
morng have to wakeup 3 am to go to airport also....  having my dinner.. then sleep...am tired of replying with friendschat... now days I don't like fb whatsapp chat..  ..uff uff ufff...  

soon I will not thinking  about u..

am trying to be busy..its helping  me to my prayers to ur family always..

..goodnyt to me .😎😎😎

ninaivugal

indha blog ah eludhuradhu ... ennaikavadhu oru naal  nee paarka chance irukku.. .  naan enna pannitu irundhennu unakku puriyanum...

naan unnai unmaiyaadhan love pannen...
adhaan vittuda mudiyalai....
nee vittutu ponaalum unnoda ninaivugal ..appapo vandhu disturb pannudhu.. .anyhow ..hope u r happy there.  miss u .😍😐

rainy morning

fresh morning here...

sema rain.. .

driving...musics...

cool climate .. I wish u to be with me n right by side n my arms.... miss u

I saw u r online n fb... light ah ullukkulla pattampoochi...  I never msg u ..bcos recent days..naan pannina disturb la nee konjam veruththu poita... so unnai bayamuraththa virumbalai..

epdiyum . .nee ennai veruththuruppa..also marandhukooda poiruppa ..sometime i feel depressed ....

ippo konjam konjamaa naanum marakka try pannitu irukken...
don't know ...

unnoda andha smiling face...

manasai vittu pogalai...

I love you nd  miss u daalu...

midnyt sleep

hoi.. ..am tired...10.50 pm here..
today was very busy ...shopping with sis

I say u online n soma..😂
kk.
gonna sleep..goodnyttt daaluu 😂😎

Friday mrng

  Friday  morng ...

feeling bit fresh n the mrng ..

planing to go around outside...

gonna take bath ...😎

online status ...

i saw u online now... I want to msg u ..but ..... controlling myself.dont want disturb ur happiness.. hope u r fine.
..and atch ku sariyaaganumnu pray pannikiren...

lunch break ..

mind is getting blank today...

saapda pidikkalai...

I wanna send you some money ..
but not possible to candact u..

am always checking u in whatsapp nd soma that u r online not

nee inneram enna  pannittu iruppanu
thinking ah irukku..

really i miss u daalu..

morning mind

am back ..
. 9 am here..at site after a lazy driving
    mind silent mode la irukku....

1 week ah shave pannalai...
sometime meeting podhum podhu oru maadhiri iruku

as usual...unnnoda njaabagangal ...
sometimes naan ..unnai evlo veruppaakirukenu feel panren..

I need you...apdinnu
  manasu thonudhu..

but almost namma relationship over ..

konja naal la nee ennai suththamaa marandhuduva..... 

but ennoda manasula unnoda ninaivugal mattum azhiyaadhu...

..i miss you loosu..

sleepless nd thinking about the past

9hi gudmrng....

4.15 am here. i woke up early..
I got some breathing prob..ufff
now some  thinking  n my minds
when u started to avoid me......yes that mahi issues...

dony know why i was angry that days 

i don't care about  ur past....

but... even after we love..  u were giving importance to

I have told u everything...

when i fall n love with u...i forget everything...

and one thing.....  dev confused  me nd u....  played  well..

I remember...
I used badwords...on that guys bcos of my thinking u r mine 

here our problem started...day by day u started to avoid me
...u said that family prob...
also atchukutti ku irundha burng efc....  hospital la irundha starting konja naal En kooda  nalladhaan pesitu irundha....  here after ... ellaamey maara aarambichadhu...

munnadilaam  nee busstand ku poradhuku munnadi solluva..

but andha naatkal... ..nee sometime sollamaley travel panna aarambicha..

phone calls avoid panna aarambicha... I know Atchu ku irundha problems kooda..

but adhu mattum illai... naan unkitta apdi nadandhukitadhu ...unakku en mela oru veruppai koduththuruchu...

adikadi
  naan varuththapatta visayam...

andha pasanga paththi pesa aarambichadhu...

adhudhaan naan pannina periya mistake....

but unnai adhigama love panna aarambichyen....enakku mattumgra aasai..paasam..kaadhal..

but unkitta pesumpodhu ..ennaiariyaama
unnai veruppakura maadhiri pesiduren ..

really i am sorry di...

ipdidhaan namakkulaa distance adhigamanuhu..

then..weekly once call panradhey periya visayamaachuu..

unnoda pechula..oru interesting  illai....nee ennai avoid panrangra kovam ..naan edhodho pesunen...

  kandippaaa nee ennai avoid panna try panniruppaa... 

ennai marakka
vera yaarkitayavadhu pesradhuku important kodukka aarambichanu
enakku thona aarambichadhu....

ennoda status msg ..dp la..en manasula ulladhai solla aarambicheyn...

but unakku konjam konjamaa veruppaiyum koduthutten pola..

completely changed..  nee veetuku vandhutum..  nee free ah irundhaalum no calls ...

no msgs...

ennoda yemaatram enakku valiya kodukka aarambichadhu..

andha dev mela sema gaandu...ella kuzhappathukum kaaranam...

but ava senja oru nalla visayam..

namma scrn shot andha pasangakita irukunu... 
.
ketta visayam unnoda past ah enkitta sonnadhu...

nee epdi irundhagradhelam i don't care..

but naan ninaichu paartheyn...

sometime..school vittu varumpodhu..

enkitta pesikittu varuva..
mahi veedu vandhaa...apram pesurenu
  sollitu cut panniruka ......nd sometimes nee upset ah iruppa ..like u r missing someone ..enkitta pesunaalum  intrest illadha maadhiri
  
appolaam theriyalai....... eppo dev enkita sonnalo..appodhaan idhellam manasula oda aarambichadhu... 
    so mulu manasoda enkitta nee pesalai nd just time pass dhaano nu thonuchu..

enakku enna seiradhunu theriyalai..

also after our love.. 1st time nee chennai ku pogum podhu..nee ennai remba miss pannina....  2nd time...u were n full upset...

but un manasula .. enakku mulusa idam illaingra ...nallaa purinjadhu...

idhellaammm en manasula yemaatram nd pain ah koduthuchu...

indha maadhiryaaana thinking dhaan.. nee atchu prob irundhunm..naan unkitta kovapadradhu...chat  pannalai...pesalainu keattu irritate pannadhu.....

ennaala controls panna mudiyaamadhan  unnai adhigama disturb panniten..

so ellaamey maariduhchu ...niraya naala pesalai... .epovaadhu chat...nee enga pora..eppo pora ...onum  theriyalai....yaaro
oruthtanta pesura maadhiri ... pesunaa..

konjam kooda love feeling unkita illai..

atchu ku irundha prob vera....mahi issue la unakku konjam bayam vandhurukum...
moreover ennoda kadumaiyaana words..

un husband ninaippu.. financials prob
...tottal ah nee manasu veruthuruppaa...

adikadi naan unkitta .. I love you sonnen....unnai miss panradhai sonnen...

naan adhigamaa un pinnaadi vandhadhun..   unaku en mela love nd intrest kuraya aarambichadhu
......  result  no calls ..no chats...eppovadhu pesuna.. I guessed....ennai verukka nee vera friends kooda pesuriyo nu..

sometime ennaala amount help pannamudiyalai ..bcos I were n more trouble...

finally maams varra naal confirmed...

nee ennai almost veruthtutta..... naan unkitta kenja aarambicheyn..

nee konjam kooda care pannalai...

naan un manasula oru oraththuladhan  irundhirukken........  adhumattum theriyum..

nee enakku mattum nu feel panni love pannen...

but kandippaa un manasula ... naan
mulusaa illai ...

sema cute ah irundhuchu........ellaamey naasamaa pochu
...
  
en manasula irundha love mattum kuraiyila.........idho ippo ..nee remba thoorathula... ...   naan mattum inga

un kooda irundha andha azhagaana naatkal... en manasula irundhu poga
   marukkudhu.... remba miss panren.

enakku oru aasai naama aasaipatta maadhiri ..namakku mrg nadakanumnu..

adhu nadandha....  namakulla irukkura
ellaa problems solve aagidum....

butttt i don't know it will happen or not ..

I will be loving u .....even if u don't.....

onnu again unkooda seranum.....illai manasula irundhu mulusaa unnoda ninaivugal poganum..

edhu nadkakkudho theriyalai...

now duty ku kilambura time ...

Will be back ltr...miss u..

sleep time

i didn't do much workout..just relaxing in  outside weather ..songs..calls..chatting....i came to room too late.. .
had dinner..

now in bed.... I feel better now.. I saw it status ..online on9.10 ...😂 ...
gudnyt loosu

time passing

hi... hope u r fine..

room ku vandhutu...friends chatting
.calling...  nd now ..walking pogaporen..climate sema cool...udambu tired aagura varai exercise last 3 days ah..aappodhaan...nyt la tired la thoongamudiuum..... 😎  ok i will be back ltr.

boring day

hmmmm... lazy day ...site la iruken..
hmm..mobile la irundhu un number ah dlt panniten.....konjam konjama marakkanum...  Nee enakku
  send pannina pics apdiyeh
irukku..... adhai paarkum
  podhellaam un njaabagam varudhu...

so ..1 week la konjam konjam dlt pannanum...

mulusaa marandhuttu pazhayapadi freebird ah maara try panren

ennaala mudinja varai ...work la concentrate pannitu irukken...

theriyalai...nadakumaanu.......paarkalaam

then..

en mela niraya thappu..

sometime financial ah help panna mudiyaama poiduchu..

unnai kovapattu thappu thappa pesi..unnaiya verupaakiten..

Nee ennai kazhatti vida ninaichuttu irukkanu ...kovam

sema cute ah irundha love....unnoda situations nd ennoda kovam puratti Pottuduchu...
k
naan thevaiillaama kovapattutennu ninaikiren

kadaisi varai nee enkooda irukkanungra aasai ... but everything spoiled...

..ennanamo nadandhuduchu....

love la yemaandha vali epdi irukumnu ipodhan puriyudhu...

kandippaa unnoda .mistakes illai..
 
naandhaan..porumaiyaa illaama... spoil panniten..

today s 3rd day... I hope..konjam   ellaathaiyum marandhudven... nee ennai marandha maadhiri..

Nee eppavum happy ah irukkanum..

I love you solla thonalai...

epdiyo pogattumnu nee poitta.. iniyum adhaiye ninaichu vaazhndhuttu epdi irukiradhu.....
 
ufff...idhellaam maaranum ...paarkalaam..  🙄

boring

hmm..not intrest n work ..lazy..no feel hungry ..i just miss u loosu

while driving

hoi... gudmrng .. am driving now  ... alone..i just saw u n the watsapp ..u r online .. I won't msg u ... 😂 takecare di

happy mornong

happy morng ...

i just woke up now...gonna get ready to work......ufff  need to refresh my mindset..

2nd day of struggle

hi...reached home 4.30..driving  la songs..appapo un njaabagam...friend call... ...

today enna aachu nu solllalaila....?

mrng konjam kastama irundhuchu

driving
..site...permit papers ready pannittu ...relax ..song...u remember..konja naal munnaadi....mrng permit  work nudichutu vandhu call pesurennu sollitu poven..nee bus la school ku pova......adhellam njaabagam indha site la...what to do ... I miss u

mrng saapda thonalai...

vera oru site la...meeting.. mudichutu ..lunch saapten..

WhatsApp fb la time pass aagiduchu..

apppao un njaabagam...nee anupuna Songs edhunaa keyttaa...automatic ah kannu  kalangudhu...

nee online  varavey illai...

evning...yesterday nadandhadhai post pannittu room ku kilambi ..car eduthutu veliya vandheyn......i remember i forgot that files nd helmet...again return vandhu eduthutuu ...kilambitu ...4.30 home...starting of the post la

room ku vantu..dress washing.. ...

dishes wash..pantuu soru vechuttu.... then pasanga vandhaanga...nana walking kilambiten

sanghil call panninaa.... Abi sister kovathula poittaa...
..walking  pogumpodhu light at rain...

hey..nee 5 pm ku online vandhuruka pola..

WhatsApp la friends kooda mokkai..

unnaaley ennjeevan ....ennaachu yedhaachu song ketkum podhu . ..... remba kalangitten...udaney songs change  panniten.... ..  

body heat ah irukunu  nallaennai
vechurundheynn......room ku vantuu...kulichutuu.... konjam friends kooda mokkai...

ippo time 10.05.... thookkam varudhu..light ah in ninaippu ..but it's ok ...feel sleepy chellam.. .

goodnyt di...ummaaheww bye

forgetting myself

back to site ... file nd helmet marandhuttennn 😂😂😂

memories of u

today is lovers day ... i wanna say you  ....i love you so much  loosu nd miss u loosu..but I can say here only..

  let's contniue about yesterday.....

morng i was feeling empty nd very tired of sleepless last night  bcos u were not reply..nd I was texting u continuesly ..u said u r n travel with ur family members......but I was thinking that u r trying to avoid  me completely cos the next day 13.2.2017 u will be with ur loved one ...........whole night i was thinking about u like u r gonna very far from me .. nd will end our story here...

I just expected...that u wil say i miss u takecare...but even i don't get a reply ...

I felt tired nd slept for 2 hr till morng 3 am. 13.2.2017.nd again i start texting u cos I'm few hrs u will not be able to talk to me.. .....13th feb mrng around 6 o clk u saw my msg nd no reply.....
I felt like am empty  ...nd getting ready to work ...i started to driving my car nd called u ... not answer ... msgs ..no reply
....... cloudy weather....driving...full of pain n heart ...our memories ...  music's..........   I was feel like a kid and i am trting to control my tears.. .....

arround 7.30 my time..u msg nd started to talking like a stranger ...nd saying i cant talk to u ... don't msg me... in one hr i will be n airport .......  even u not say ... miss u ..takecare.....  I feel like everything gonna over....i couldn't control myself nd felt crying.... nd u asked me that if id disturb u while u r with your family will u reply ?  i have no answer nd said sorry ...  again the same reason u told me which u told me lastnyt that u r with ur mom
nd cousins...  
   reached my destination nd waiting outside that incause if u reply ..i don't want to miss it.. but already am late..

later ur last msg was... I am in airport ...

Replied u    takecare bye.. 

that msgs u deleted  ...   

I tried to concentrate n my work ...  

I forgot a appointment to meet with clients team
......  ..when I around the  sites i rememberd that i used there to talk u for hrs few days back ...

what to do .. nothing n my hand ..

..later u have open ur whatsapp..but I know u cannot see my number which u deleted n chats nd mobile ...
 
enna panradhunu  theriyalai
.....12pm    canteen la silent ah utkaarndhuten ...  somebody was smoking there... i remember that u told me that u like smoking smells nd style..

I took 2 sigrates nd start to smoke... later i felt vomiting ... saapdavum illai
.......   I was open nd close our chat history  n whastsapp...
.. I was imaging what u r doing .....nd asking myself... ennoda njaabagam irukkkumaa....? 

oh my god... whole day was like a hell...

vegamaa azhanum pola irundhuchu

Nee enkitta pesunadhu ...love naa ennaanau  enakku puriya vechadhu...

konjam konjamaa namakulla distance aahnadhu.. ..  ellaamey manasula odikittu irundhuchu..... 

room ku pogalaamm early car eduthuttu kilambitten...
...  unnoda photos ah paarthukittey driving..... fm la situation ku song ...

slightly raining .... unnai semmayaa miss pannen

manasula unnoda ninaippai thavira
edhuvumey illai ..... 

oru visayam marandhutten ...mrng unnoda fb la poi thevai illadha unnoda friends
  msgs ah dlt panniten ...avaru paarthuttaa problem ...thappudhan ...sorry

reached home ... mrng la irundhu 2 tea dhaan sapdalai...sigrate smell bayangaramaa
  vomit vandhuchuu....brush pannitu
...songs keyttutu paduthuten......

evning arround 6 pm nee fb nd whatsapp
online la vandhuchu....  

ennaala peaceful ah irukka mudiyalai...... ennoda manasu oru adam pudikkira 
kizhandhai manasu ah feel pannen

namakulla irundha andha
aazhagaana kaadhal ... vandhu disturb pannitey
irundhuchu
.....group la friends kooda konja neram pesittu ...mind chang panna  try pannen

no use........

7 mani irukum...  walking pogalaamm nu veliya kilambiten  .friends calls ..chats pesikittu..walking jogging... music ...

marakkamudiyalai
......  en mela paithiyama irukura friend kooda
ennaala pesa
mudiyalai....   kovaththula vegama
jogging panna aarambicheyn
... mrng la irundhu saapdalai...smoke smell ..adivayiru varai...ippo jogging

mayakkam varra feeling.....

back home.. .nd again brush to kill the smoking smells...

morethan 40 min n shower.....

saapda thonalai... Nee again
online vandhutu
poirundha pola...

9.30 konjama saaptu..

again friends kooda chat ...i love you nu msg panra friends .. en manasula un  ninaippu.... body tired ..felt sleep ...n midnyt .....lose sleep ...today mrng tottally tired .....
..... ..ipo 4.10 on aagudhu..room ku poren......  driving alone nd music with ur memories .. i like it.. 

room ku poitu fresh aagittu   pesuren.. I love you loossu

 

beginning of my memories with her

   hi to me nd her...

today i have created this blog to keep my memories alive that what happened after  i met her....
I will use a Nickname  to mention her here...

I will use her name as  daalu😚


i was met her n My relative engagement function about 6 month ago...  am gonna share  that whT happened in my life  after i met her  till today ... am writing this only for me...or she might be have a chance to visit here..not sure.

today is 13.2.2017... it was a worst day ever in my life ..why?..thatswhy am here .....lets see...
 am gonna look at back nd ahead by writing what was happened while writing what's happening....  it's too late now...wanna sleep...toMrow will say why today was worst day n my life .....so .....bye  to me nd yazhini ...goodnyt😴