memories of u

today is lovers day ... i wanna say you  ....i love you so much  loosu nd miss u loosu..but I can say here only..

  let's contniue about yesterday.....

morng i was feeling empty nd very tired of sleepless last night  bcos u were not reply..nd I was texting u continuesly ..u said u r n travel with ur family members......but I was thinking that u r trying to avoid  me completely cos the next day 13.2.2017 u will be with ur loved one ...........whole night i was thinking about u like u r gonna very far from me .. nd will end our story here...

I just expected...that u wil say i miss u takecare...but even i don't get a reply ...

I felt tired nd slept for 2 hr till morng 3 am. 13.2.2017.nd again i start texting u cos I'm few hrs u will not be able to talk to me.. .....13th feb mrng around 6 o clk u saw my msg nd no reply.....
I felt like am empty  ...nd getting ready to work ...i started to driving my car nd called u ... not answer ... msgs ..no reply
....... cloudy weather....driving...full of pain n heart ...our memories ...  music's..........   I was feel like a kid and i am trting to control my tears.. .....

arround 7.30 my time..u msg nd started to talking like a stranger ...nd saying i cant talk to u ... don't msg me... in one hr i will be n airport .......  even u not say ... miss u ..takecare.....  I feel like everything gonna over....i couldn't control myself nd felt crying.... nd u asked me that if id disturb u while u r with your family will u reply ?  i have no answer nd said sorry ...  again the same reason u told me which u told me lastnyt that u r with ur mom
nd cousins...  
   reached my destination nd waiting outside that incause if u reply ..i don't want to miss it.. but already am late..

later ur last msg was... I am in airport ...

Replied u    takecare bye.. 

that msgs u deleted  ...   

I tried to concentrate n my work ...  

I forgot a appointment to meet with clients team
......  ..when I around the  sites i rememberd that i used there to talk u for hrs few days back ...

what to do .. nothing n my hand ..

..later u have open ur whatsapp..but I know u cannot see my number which u deleted n chats nd mobile ...
 
enna panradhunu  theriyalai
.....12pm    canteen la silent ah utkaarndhuten ...  somebody was smoking there... i remember that u told me that u like smoking smells nd style..

I took 2 sigrates nd start to smoke... later i felt vomiting ... saapdavum illai
.......   I was open nd close our chat history  n whastsapp...
.. I was imaging what u r doing .....nd asking myself... ennoda njaabagam irukkkumaa....? 

oh my god... whole day was like a hell...

vegamaa azhanum pola irundhuchu

Nee enkitta pesunadhu ...love naa ennaanau  enakku puriya vechadhu...

konjam konjamaa namakulla distance aahnadhu.. ..  ellaamey manasula odikittu irundhuchu..... 

room ku pogalaamm early car eduthuttu kilambitten...
...  unnoda photos ah paarthukittey driving..... fm la situation ku song ...

slightly raining .... unnai semmayaa miss pannen

manasula unnoda ninaippai thavira
edhuvumey illai ..... 

oru visayam marandhutten ...mrng unnoda fb la poi thevai illadha unnoda friends
  msgs ah dlt panniten ...avaru paarthuttaa problem ...thappudhan ...sorry

reached home ... mrng la irundhu 2 tea dhaan sapdalai...sigrate smell bayangaramaa
  vomit vandhuchuu....brush pannitu
...songs keyttutu paduthuten......

evning arround 6 pm nee fb nd whatsapp
online la vandhuchu....  

ennaala peaceful ah irukka mudiyalai...... ennoda manasu oru adam pudikkira 
kizhandhai manasu ah feel pannen

namakulla irundha andha
aazhagaana kaadhal ... vandhu disturb pannitey
irundhuchu
.....group la friends kooda konja neram pesittu ...mind chang panna  try pannen

no use........

7 mani irukum...  walking pogalaamm nu veliya kilambiten  .friends calls ..chats pesikittu..walking jogging... music ...

marakkamudiyalai
......  en mela paithiyama irukura friend kooda
ennaala pesa
mudiyalai....   kovaththula vegama
jogging panna aarambicheyn
... mrng la irundhu saapdalai...smoke smell ..adivayiru varai...ippo jogging

mayakkam varra feeling.....

back home.. .nd again brush to kill the smoking smells...

morethan 40 min n shower.....

saapda thonalai... Nee again
online vandhutu
poirundha pola...

9.30 konjama saaptu..

again friends kooda chat ...i love you nu msg panra friends .. en manasula un  ninaippu.... body tired ..felt sleep ...n midnyt .....lose sleep ...today mrng tottally tired .....
..... ..ipo 4.10 on aagudhu..room ku poren......  driving alone nd music with ur memories .. i like it.. 

room ku poitu fresh aagittu   pesuren.. I love you loossu