sleepless nd thinking about the past

9hi gudmrng....

4.15 am here. i woke up early..
I got some breathing prob..ufff
now some  thinking  n my minds
when u started to avoid me......yes that mahi issues...

dony know why i was angry that days 

i don't care about  ur past....

but... even after we love..  u were giving importance to

I have told u everything...

when i fall n love with u...i forget everything...

and one thing.....  dev confused  me nd u....  played  well..

I remember...
I used badwords...on that guys bcos of my thinking u r mine 

here our problem started...day by day u started to avoid me
...u said that family prob...
also atchukutti ku irundha burng efc....  hospital la irundha starting konja naal En kooda  nalladhaan pesitu irundha....  here after ... ellaamey maara aarambichadhu...

munnadilaam  nee busstand ku poradhuku munnadi solluva..

but andha naatkal... ..nee sometime sollamaley travel panna aarambicha..

phone calls avoid panna aarambicha... I know Atchu ku irundha problems kooda..

but adhu mattum illai... naan unkitta apdi nadandhukitadhu ...unakku en mela oru veruppai koduththuruchu...

adikadi
  naan varuththapatta visayam...

andha pasanga paththi pesa aarambichadhu...

adhudhaan naan pannina periya mistake....

but unnai adhigama love panna aarambichyen....enakku mattumgra aasai..paasam..kaadhal..

but unkitta pesumpodhu ..ennaiariyaama
unnai veruppakura maadhiri pesiduren ..

really i am sorry di...

ipdidhaan namakkulaa distance adhigamanuhu..

then..weekly once call panradhey periya visayamaachuu..

unnoda pechula..oru interesting  illai....nee ennai avoid panrangra kovam ..naan edhodho pesunen...

  kandippaaa nee ennai avoid panna try panniruppaa... 

ennai marakka
vera yaarkitayavadhu pesradhuku important kodukka aarambichanu
enakku thona aarambichadhu....

ennoda status msg ..dp la..en manasula ulladhai solla aarambicheyn...

but unakku konjam konjamaa veruppaiyum koduthutten pola..

completely changed..  nee veetuku vandhutum..  nee free ah irundhaalum no calls ...

no msgs...

ennoda yemaatram enakku valiya kodukka aarambichadhu..

andha dev mela sema gaandu...ella kuzhappathukum kaaranam...

but ava senja oru nalla visayam..

namma scrn shot andha pasangakita irukunu... 
.
ketta visayam unnoda past ah enkitta sonnadhu...

nee epdi irundhagradhelam i don't care..

but naan ninaichu paartheyn...

sometime..school vittu varumpodhu..

enkitta pesikittu varuva..
mahi veedu vandhaa...apram pesurenu
  sollitu cut panniruka ......nd sometimes nee upset ah iruppa ..like u r missing someone ..enkitta pesunaalum  intrest illadha maadhiri
  
appolaam theriyalai....... eppo dev enkita sonnalo..appodhaan idhellam manasula oda aarambichadhu... 
    so mulu manasoda enkitta nee pesalai nd just time pass dhaano nu thonuchu..

enakku enna seiradhunu theriyalai..

also after our love.. 1st time nee chennai ku pogum podhu..nee ennai remba miss pannina....  2nd time...u were n full upset...

but un manasula .. enakku mulusa idam illaingra ...nallaa purinjadhu...

idhellaammm en manasula yemaatram nd pain ah koduthuchu...

indha maadhiryaaana thinking dhaan.. nee atchu prob irundhunm..naan unkitta kovapadradhu...chat  pannalai...pesalainu keattu irritate pannadhu.....

ennaala controls panna mudiyaamadhan  unnai adhigama disturb panniten..

so ellaamey maariduhchu ...niraya naala pesalai... .epovaadhu chat...nee enga pora..eppo pora ...onum  theriyalai....yaaro
oruthtanta pesura maadhiri ... pesunaa..

konjam kooda love feeling unkita illai..

atchu ku irundha prob vera....mahi issue la unakku konjam bayam vandhurukum...
moreover ennoda kadumaiyaana words..

un husband ninaippu.. financials prob
...tottal ah nee manasu veruthuruppaa...

adikadi naan unkitta .. I love you sonnen....unnai miss panradhai sonnen...

naan adhigamaa un pinnaadi vandhadhun..   unaku en mela love nd intrest kuraya aarambichadhu
......  result  no calls ..no chats...eppovadhu pesuna.. I guessed....ennai verukka nee vera friends kooda pesuriyo nu..

sometime ennaala amount help pannamudiyalai ..bcos I were n more trouble...

finally maams varra naal confirmed...

nee ennai almost veruthtutta..... naan unkitta kenja aarambicheyn..

nee konjam kooda care pannalai...

naan un manasula oru oraththuladhan  irundhirukken........  adhumattum theriyum..

nee enakku mattum nu feel panni love pannen...

but kandippaa un manasula ... naan
mulusaa illai ...

sema cute ah irundhuchu........ellaamey naasamaa pochu
...
  
en manasula irundha love mattum kuraiyila.........idho ippo ..nee remba thoorathula... ...   naan mattum inga

un kooda irundha andha azhagaana naatkal... en manasula irundhu poga
   marukkudhu.... remba miss panren.

enakku oru aasai naama aasaipatta maadhiri ..namakku mrg nadakanumnu..

adhu nadandha....  namakulla irukkura
ellaa problems solve aagidum....

butttt i don't know it will happen or not ..

I will be loving u .....even if u don't.....

onnu again unkooda seranum.....illai manasula irundhu mulusaa unnoda ninaivugal poganum..

edhu nadkakkudho theriyalai...

now duty ku kilambura time ...

Will be back ltr...miss u..