same time online ..😂

  morng morng was tired to wake-up ..went bathroom n sleepy mood ...bcos  of the drops which i took lastnyt for cold......  my time is passing with watching movies..facebook..

today arround 8.15..i just check u whatsapp u were online...n min u went offline... and I checked n soma ...goddamn u came online...suddenly I felt like u also checking me .... or don't know that u may   came to check ur msgs..

I unblock u n whatsapp now ..

when i miss u badly i block u makes me cool like u didnt avoid me..i did ..   it's sillymind na..  i dontknow how long like this.. .  have a great day.. 

tired of thinking

gudevng to me

it was a tired day today....oopss ... don't have my lunch ..only juice ..

I unfriend u myself n ur facebook.. bcos..i always checking u that online r not..so I want to avoid it bcos . u are not there to think me ....   now almost 16 days...u didn't me a single msg .... am tired of waiting for ur msg.... ..its shows like u forgot me completly ...  adhaan ...whatsapp la block..fb la un friend.. . .... but manasula u r there n strong position.... epdi idhula irundhu veliya varuvennu theriyalai.....

now i remember one thing that u told me like.... 

airport pora varai pesuven..nd  mams veetla illadhappo...phone  panrennu... 

kandippaa nee ninaichaa enaku msg pannalaam...clg pogumpodhu... but u r not say a hi also...

anywayyy... idhaan life  but unnoda indha pirivu ...idhuvarai naan feek pannadha alavukki depress la vitrukku... epdi recover aavennu theriyalai..

reached home....need some rest.. bye now. 

feeling better day

oppss.. forget to say about yesterday .. ...was raining here....heavy rain..i left site early nd danger driving n rain..but was beautiful... then went hospital ...got a injection 😂 nd pharmacy taking medicines then came home .. are dinner nd 3 tablets.. cold tonic..drops..then slept early cos of medicines effect.......i blocked her n whatsapp n nyt was feeling better to sleep😂😂 i want to forget everything is nnmy mind related to me nd her...its a big challenge now ..

nd today morng.....

I could  not wakeup ...was difficult to open eyes...  when i awoke.. I check mobile  i saw a notification like...su***sam* send you request n Facebook . .....  I just open the notifications...but nothing there....i think my imagine was likethat.....dontknow really.....bcos I was so sleepy..mi mind thinking likethat ?may be.

then as usual at site...

was chatting nd cmnds n fb.. today I didn't Chexk her online that u are online or not ...bcos lastnyt i blocked ..

I was thinking that why I need to be like kid's.. .. she left me  nd dontcare me..so better i should forget her likethat ...

probably i will not be thinking u again.. whenever u r in my thought an getting myself to be busy at work.. talking to friends...ect ...

hope soon will forget everything n get back myself n to normal life ...

now dinner time..gonnaa have my dinner...then medicines  for cold.. pills for sleep...hope everything will be all right..

signing off now..goodnyt to me... bubyeeeeeee

sick again

site la...whole day car la sitting....listening songs...unnoda photos...pur memories ...naama pesinadhu
ellaam ninaichukittu...veliya raining ...

semmaiyaa miss panren...

enakku en mela sema kovama varudhu
...naandhaan un situition therinjum...thappu thappaa purinjikittu unnai torcher panniten....nee ennai verukiradhukku kaaranam
naandhaan....

everything happens bcos of my mistakes ..

I am sorry di...  ini nee ennai marandhuduvanu theriyum....

unnai marakka mudiyaama remba kastamaa irukku... unnoda  mugam kan munnaadi vandhu disturb pannudhu...

nee mrng 6.31 ku appuram online eh varalai....... 
 
enakku ippo irukira orey happy  ..nee eppo online varuvaa nu paarthu sandhosapadradhu..pesalainaalum... edho manasuku aarudhal ah irukku...

daily 100 times aavadhu nee nee online la
iruppiyaanu check pannittu ...dontknow .....naan eppo maaruvennu ....

nee irundha idaththula yaaraiyum  ninaikka kooda mudiyalai.....

Atchu ku sariyaagiduchaa ...nith epdi irukkaan...idhai
kooda ketka
mudiyalai.....

enakku  2 days ah fever   ...sariyaa thoongaama ..eyes reddish..thanni
vandhuttu irukku...evning hospital poittu..

sleeping pills podanum...

naan seekiram unnai marandhuttu...pazhayapadi endha  expect illaama... vaazhanumnu aasaipadure ..

I miss u di..unnoda love ah marakkavey mudiyalai ....

Sunday mrng

  am very tired of cold nd fever..  came to site nd taking rest n car...

no strength n heart nd body..
my health s getting very weak day by day..

ooruku poidalaamanu irukku..evning hospital poganum...

empty ah irukura maahdiri irukku....

tired

mudiyalai... cold infection.. throat infections...eyes r tired.....mentally fucking tiredddd.... seththralam pola irukku...
sariyaa saapdaama..thoongaama...what the fuck is happening to me... I hate myself. ...😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

sick

fever nd cold...thyroid high ah irukku...

not n normal..thatswhy getting angry..stress... hormone imbalance.......work ku pogalai...vazhakkampola.. nee msg pannuviyaanu adikadi checking.. ..sleepless.tired.. dontknow..eppo ellaam sariyaagum theriyalai... ...   

nee vittuttu pona vali rembavey baadhichirukku...  hope seekiram naan unnaimaadhiriyeh marandhuttu..normal life ku chang aaganumnu vendikkiren..

today namma oorla thiruvizha ..oorla irundhaa sight  aavadhu adichiruppen..😂

miss u...

sleep time

hey loossu...

today off ...room la..singam 3..nd hollywood movies paartheyn... songs ... and  fb la niraya posts ... innoru fb id unnoda fb la add panniruken.. nee adhu naandhaananu kandupidikkiriyaa nu paarkanum. ...

promise ah ippodhaandi...love na ..ennaa..love feel nd pain  na ennaanu theriyudhu.... ..  kadaisi varai unkooda vaazhanumdi....   ennoda love  enakku mattum dhaanu thonudhu...

idhellaam. epdi unakku puriya veikiradhunu theriyalai...

indha 2 months la ennai marandhuduviyonu bayam....

unakki ooruku varumpodhu nee aasaiyaa keytta chain vaangitharanum... nd ring ... 😚😚😚  ...i love you di loosu..

orunaal ennoda love unakku puriyanum....  unnai endha alavukku love panrennu... 

enkitta irukura oru bad hobbit.. kovapaduradhu .......  nee enga ennai vittutu vera yaarkittayavadhu pesuviyonu bayam.....i really miss u dii ..goodnyt daalu.. 😍😍

Friday fresh

happy morng...

  Friday off ..thursday nyt u came online nn whastapp nd soma..also n fb ...u didnt msg me... ....  kandippaaa nee ninaichaa  enakku call pannirukka mudiyum..but unakku istam illai...
naan kovapattu pesinadhu elllam unnai ennai verikka vechchurukum...... nee ennai avoid panninadhudhan ennoda kovaththuku kaaranam.....  anyhow nee happy ah irundhaa  adhu podhum

am always thinking about u... unnai konjam kooda marakkamudiyalai...

nee illadha ovoru naalum ennaala samaalikka mudiyalai..  en manasu unakku puriyumaa ennaanu theriyalai.. 😂i miss u daalu...

orunaal idhellaam unakku puriyum... nd u wil come back.. I hope so..

I love you loosu.

soma

oh my god...by mistake i msg u n soma....i was typed hoi 3 days before...nd didn't send   ..now soma la open pannum podhu..nee online la irukiyaanu check pannen...by mistAke msg send panniten.....enna panradhunu theriyalai

feeling empty

site la irukken...saapda thonalai..  I'm njaabagam adhigama aagudhu ...

unakku call panna number Dail pannen ..but vendaamnu vittuten..nee thaniyaa illainna.. .ennaikaavdhu nee msg or call pannunga nu waiting.. ... 21st tuesday 9 pm ku nee nee whatsallonline la irundha..adhukkappuran
nee 2 days ah kaanom.... I think u changed ur number ..am always checking u .......  unnai remba miss panren.. 

call or msg panninaa..  innum adhigama veruththuduviyonu bayam..

yesterday clinic poirundheyn...

blood test results la.. thyroid  veryhigh... medicines contniue panna sonnaanga...

manasu tired...health s  not well ..
naan kovapattu pesiyeh unnai nogadichuttanonu feel ah irukku..

nee eppovaadhu pesuvangra  ennam kurainjittu varudhu...

enkooda kadaisi varai varuva..vittutu poida maattennu nee sonna.....

ennoda behaviour unnai vilaga vechchuduchhu..

pesavum mudiyalai..pesaama irukkavum mudiyalai.... i dont know  what to do...

un manasula ..naan irukkengra nambikkai poiduchu..

un manasula naan irundhaa inneram  nee enkitta pesiruppa ....hnn...unnai disturb panna virumbalai....hope u always fine...

takecare ...i miss u daalu.

distances

hi gudmrng ...

chill weather...

sleepy mood ..

I often checking ur online status in ..whatspp..soma.
Facebook...  ..last nyt u were online around  10.30 ur time...  then til nw n the mrng u r not online ...i miss u badly..

what about atch? is she fine?...  unakku oru msg or call kooda panna thonalai la....

hmm be happy

rainy day

at site..very cold climate ..cludy nd rainy .....manasula unnoda nninaippu.. .

msg pannalaamaa venaamaa.......unakku disturb ah irundhaa...  ..  still I remember that ....u told n sms ...

'Unaku vera thikingye ilaiya epo paru ethavathu sollikittu olunga poitu na atchayaku sarchary panna vera hospital ku treatment panna vanthurukan so ne ena vena nenaichiko na ini unkita pesura mari ila kevala paduthama poitu' ......

and also ennai avoid panna nee sonna reasons .......

chat pannaa... reply pannaama online la ...

call pannaakooda cut panninadhu....

veetla irundhaalum....  call panna cut pannitu ...oru msg kooda pannadhadhu

moththathula ...  naan un manasula illaingra ninaippu......

iniyum
unakku ennai pidikkalaingradhai
    niraya time sollaama sollitta...

idhu ellaam ninaikkum podhu ..unakku msg pannakoodadhu nu solludhu...

vilagiyeh irukken...  appovaadhu un manasula eppovaadhu...en ninaippu varum..... adhu podhum enakku..

....i miss u daalu.

தொல்லை  ஒழிந்தது  என்று அவளும்...

இதயம் தொலைந்து போனது என்று நானும்

கவிழ்ந்து போன படகு போல் என் காதல்....

missing feel disturbs me

yesterday evng  went to clinic to give blood test.. .
then saaptu slept ...

today morng wake-up then came to site......sincr yesterday i wanted to text u ..
when u saw u fb..whatsapp...soma ...

incause if u dont like ...?adhaan nammalai vendaamnu avoid panravangakitta epdi pesuradhunu thayakkamaa irukku....

paarkalaam..eppovadhu nee msg panninaa ...

enakku ulla irukkira orey oru kelvi...

nijamaa ennai veruththuttiyaa??

feeling missing

unnai marakka mudiyalai...innaiku in njaabagam adhigama irukku....  unnaala oru call kooda panna mudiyalai la .....

morng

goodmrngg ...

chill morng . .driving..nd site work..

yesterday was busy  .3 am airport...yo send off sis.. then site....evning n clinic ..for thyroid checkup...  putting kadalai with a malayali nurse😂 i asked her mobile number
..she won't... again innaiku try pannanum today blood test ku poven..😂

lastnyt seekiram thoongitten...1 week ah sariyaa thoongalai...

hmm.. sometime i check ur whatsapp nd say  u have been online ..

I don't want to msg u.....nee ennai evlo veruthuruppa nu last konja naal therinjuduchu......

innum konja naal suththamaa marandhuttuu naan naanaa vaazhanumnu aaasaipaduren..

ennai pidikaadha oruthhukitta naan kenjittu irundhurukken...😂😂😂..

busy day

9.30 pm here
a..i was very busy today. much tired of driving

. preparing luggages to send with sis.
 
morng have to wakeup 3 am to go to airport also....  having my dinner.. then sleep...am tired of replying with friendschat... now days I don't like fb whatsapp chat..  ..uff uff ufff...  

soon I will not thinking  about u..

am trying to be busy..its helping  me to my prayers to ur family always..

..goodnyt to me .😎😎😎

ninaivugal

indha blog ah eludhuradhu ... ennaikavadhu oru naal  nee paarka chance irukku.. .  naan enna pannitu irundhennu unakku puriyanum...

naan unnai unmaiyaadhan love pannen...
adhaan vittuda mudiyalai....
nee vittutu ponaalum unnoda ninaivugal ..appapo vandhu disturb pannudhu.. .anyhow ..hope u r happy there.  miss u .😍😐

rainy morning

fresh morning here...

sema rain.. .

driving...musics...

cool climate .. I wish u to be with me n right by side n my arms.... miss u

I saw u r online n fb... light ah ullukkulla pattampoochi...  I never msg u ..bcos recent days..naan pannina disturb la nee konjam veruththu poita... so unnai bayamuraththa virumbalai..

epdiyum . .nee ennai veruththuruppa..also marandhukooda poiruppa ..sometime i feel depressed ....

ippo konjam konjamaa naanum marakka try pannitu irukken...
don't know ...

unnoda andha smiling face...

manasai vittu pogalai...

I love you nd  miss u daalu...

midnyt sleep

hoi.. ..am tired...10.50 pm here..
today was very busy ...shopping with sis

I say u online n soma..😂
kk.
gonna sleep..goodnyttt daaluu 😂😎

Friday mrng

  Friday  morng ...

feeling bit fresh n the mrng ..

planing to go around outside...

gonna take bath ...😎

online status ...

i saw u online now... I want to msg u ..but ..... controlling myself.dont want disturb ur happiness.. hope u r fine.
..and atch ku sariyaaganumnu pray pannikiren...

lunch break ..

mind is getting blank today...

saapda pidikkalai...

I wanna send you some money ..
but not possible to candact u..

am always checking u in whatsapp nd soma that u r online not

nee inneram enna  pannittu iruppanu
thinking ah irukku..

really i miss u daalu..

morning mind

am back ..
. 9 am here..at site after a lazy driving
    mind silent mode la irukku....

1 week ah shave pannalai...
sometime meeting podhum podhu oru maadhiri iruku

as usual...unnnoda njaabagangal ...
sometimes naan ..unnai evlo veruppaakirukenu feel panren..

I need you...apdinnu
  manasu thonudhu..

but almost namma relationship over ..

konja naal la nee ennai suththamaa marandhuduva..... 

but ennoda manasula unnoda ninaivugal mattum azhiyaadhu...

..i miss you loosu..

sleepless nd thinking about the past

9hi gudmrng....

4.15 am here. i woke up early..
I got some breathing prob..ufff
now some  thinking  n my minds
when u started to avoid me......yes that mahi issues...

dony know why i was angry that days 

i don't care about  ur past....

but... even after we love..  u were giving importance to

I have told u everything...

when i fall n love with u...i forget everything...

and one thing.....  dev confused  me nd u....  played  well..

I remember...
I used badwords...on that guys bcos of my thinking u r mine 

here our problem started...day by day u started to avoid me
...u said that family prob...
also atchukutti ku irundha burng efc....  hospital la irundha starting konja naal En kooda  nalladhaan pesitu irundha....  here after ... ellaamey maara aarambichadhu...

munnadilaam  nee busstand ku poradhuku munnadi solluva..

but andha naatkal... ..nee sometime sollamaley travel panna aarambicha..

phone calls avoid panna aarambicha... I know Atchu ku irundha problems kooda..

but adhu mattum illai... naan unkitta apdi nadandhukitadhu ...unakku en mela oru veruppai koduththuruchu...

adikadi
  naan varuththapatta visayam...

andha pasanga paththi pesa aarambichadhu...

adhudhaan naan pannina periya mistake....

but unnai adhigama love panna aarambichyen....enakku mattumgra aasai..paasam..kaadhal..

but unkitta pesumpodhu ..ennaiariyaama
unnai veruppakura maadhiri pesiduren ..

really i am sorry di...

ipdidhaan namakkulaa distance adhigamanuhu..

then..weekly once call panradhey periya visayamaachuu..

unnoda pechula..oru interesting  illai....nee ennai avoid panrangra kovam ..naan edhodho pesunen...

  kandippaaa nee ennai avoid panna try panniruppaa... 

ennai marakka
vera yaarkitayavadhu pesradhuku important kodukka aarambichanu
enakku thona aarambichadhu....

ennoda status msg ..dp la..en manasula ulladhai solla aarambicheyn...

but unakku konjam konjamaa veruppaiyum koduthutten pola..

completely changed..  nee veetuku vandhutum..  nee free ah irundhaalum no calls ...

no msgs...

ennoda yemaatram enakku valiya kodukka aarambichadhu..

andha dev mela sema gaandu...ella kuzhappathukum kaaranam...

but ava senja oru nalla visayam..

namma scrn shot andha pasangakita irukunu... 
.
ketta visayam unnoda past ah enkitta sonnadhu...

nee epdi irundhagradhelam i don't care..

but naan ninaichu paartheyn...

sometime..school vittu varumpodhu..

enkitta pesikittu varuva..
mahi veedu vandhaa...apram pesurenu
  sollitu cut panniruka ......nd sometimes nee upset ah iruppa ..like u r missing someone ..enkitta pesunaalum  intrest illadha maadhiri
  
appolaam theriyalai....... eppo dev enkita sonnalo..appodhaan idhellam manasula oda aarambichadhu... 
    so mulu manasoda enkitta nee pesalai nd just time pass dhaano nu thonuchu..

enakku enna seiradhunu theriyalai..

also after our love.. 1st time nee chennai ku pogum podhu..nee ennai remba miss pannina....  2nd time...u were n full upset...

but un manasula .. enakku mulusa idam illaingra ...nallaa purinjadhu...

idhellaammm en manasula yemaatram nd pain ah koduthuchu...

indha maadhiryaaana thinking dhaan.. nee atchu prob irundhunm..naan unkitta kovapadradhu...chat  pannalai...pesalainu keattu irritate pannadhu.....

ennaala controls panna mudiyaamadhan  unnai adhigama disturb panniten..

so ellaamey maariduhchu ...niraya naala pesalai... .epovaadhu chat...nee enga pora..eppo pora ...onum  theriyalai....yaaro
oruthtanta pesura maadhiri ... pesunaa..

konjam kooda love feeling unkita illai..

atchu ku irundha prob vera....mahi issue la unakku konjam bayam vandhurukum...
moreover ennoda kadumaiyaana words..

un husband ninaippu.. financials prob
...tottal ah nee manasu veruthuruppaa...

adikadi naan unkitta .. I love you sonnen....unnai miss panradhai sonnen...

naan adhigamaa un pinnaadi vandhadhun..   unaku en mela love nd intrest kuraya aarambichadhu
......  result  no calls ..no chats...eppovadhu pesuna.. I guessed....ennai verukka nee vera friends kooda pesuriyo nu..

sometime ennaala amount help pannamudiyalai ..bcos I were n more trouble...

finally maams varra naal confirmed...

nee ennai almost veruthtutta..... naan unkitta kenja aarambicheyn..

nee konjam kooda care pannalai...

naan un manasula oru oraththuladhan  irundhirukken........  adhumattum theriyum..

nee enakku mattum nu feel panni love pannen...

but kandippaa un manasula ... naan
mulusaa illai ...

sema cute ah irundhuchu........ellaamey naasamaa pochu
...
  
en manasula irundha love mattum kuraiyila.........idho ippo ..nee remba thoorathula... ...   naan mattum inga

un kooda irundha andha azhagaana naatkal... en manasula irundhu poga
   marukkudhu.... remba miss panren.

enakku oru aasai naama aasaipatta maadhiri ..namakku mrg nadakanumnu..

adhu nadandha....  namakulla irukkura
ellaa problems solve aagidum....

butttt i don't know it will happen or not ..

I will be loving u .....even if u don't.....

onnu again unkooda seranum.....illai manasula irundhu mulusaa unnoda ninaivugal poganum..

edhu nadkakkudho theriyalai...

now duty ku kilambura time ...

Will be back ltr...miss u..

sleep time

i didn't do much workout..just relaxing in  outside weather ..songs..calls..chatting....i came to room too late.. .
had dinner..

now in bed.... I feel better now.. I saw it status ..online on9.10 ...😂 ...
gudnyt loosu

time passing

hi... hope u r fine..

room ku vandhutu...friends chatting
.calling...  nd now ..walking pogaporen..climate sema cool...udambu tired aagura varai exercise last 3 days ah..aappodhaan...nyt la tired la thoongamudiuum..... 😎  ok i will be back ltr.

boring day

hmmmm... lazy day ...site la iruken..
hmm..mobile la irundhu un number ah dlt panniten.....konjam konjama marakkanum...  Nee enakku
  send pannina pics apdiyeh
irukku..... adhai paarkum
  podhellaam un njaabagam varudhu...

so ..1 week la konjam konjam dlt pannanum...

mulusaa marandhuttu pazhayapadi freebird ah maara try panren

ennaala mudinja varai ...work la concentrate pannitu irukken...

theriyalai...nadakumaanu.......paarkalaam

then..

en mela niraya thappu..

sometime financial ah help panna mudiyaama poiduchu..

unnai kovapattu thappu thappa pesi..unnaiya verupaakiten..

Nee ennai kazhatti vida ninaichuttu irukkanu ...kovam

sema cute ah irundha love....unnoda situations nd ennoda kovam puratti Pottuduchu...
k
naan thevaiillaama kovapattutennu ninaikiren

kadaisi varai nee enkooda irukkanungra aasai ... but everything spoiled...

..ennanamo nadandhuduchu....

love la yemaandha vali epdi irukumnu ipodhan puriyudhu...

kandippaa unnoda .mistakes illai..
 
naandhaan..porumaiyaa illaama... spoil panniten..

today s 3rd day... I hope..konjam   ellaathaiyum marandhudven... nee ennai marandha maadhiri..

Nee eppavum happy ah irukkanum..

I love you solla thonalai...

epdiyo pogattumnu nee poitta.. iniyum adhaiye ninaichu vaazhndhuttu epdi irukiradhu.....
 
ufff...idhellaam maaranum ...paarkalaam..  🙄

boring

hmm..not intrest n work ..lazy..no feel hungry ..i just miss u loosu

while driving

hoi... gudmrng .. am driving now  ... alone..i just saw u n the watsapp ..u r online .. I won't msg u ... 😂 takecare di

happy mornong

happy morng ...

i just woke up now...gonna get ready to work......ufff  need to refresh my mindset..

2nd day of struggle

hi...reached home 4.30..driving  la songs..appapo un njaabagam...friend call... ...

today enna aachu nu solllalaila....?

mrng konjam kastama irundhuchu

driving
..site...permit papers ready pannittu ...relax ..song...u remember..konja naal munnaadi....mrng permit  work nudichutu vandhu call pesurennu sollitu poven..nee bus la school ku pova......adhellam njaabagam indha site la...what to do ... I miss u

mrng saapda thonalai...

vera oru site la...meeting.. mudichutu ..lunch saapten..

WhatsApp fb la time pass aagiduchu..

apppao un njaabagam...nee anupuna Songs edhunaa keyttaa...automatic ah kannu  kalangudhu...

nee online  varavey illai...

evning...yesterday nadandhadhai post pannittu room ku kilambi ..car eduthutu veliya vandheyn......i remember i forgot that files nd helmet...again return vandhu eduthutuu ...kilambitu ...4.30 home...starting of the post la

room ku vantu..dress washing.. ...

dishes wash..pantuu soru vechuttu.... then pasanga vandhaanga...nana walking kilambiten

sanghil call panninaa.... Abi sister kovathula poittaa...
..walking  pogumpodhu light at rain...

hey..nee 5 pm ku online vandhuruka pola..

WhatsApp la friends kooda mokkai..

unnaaley ennjeevan ....ennaachu yedhaachu song ketkum podhu . ..... remba kalangitten...udaney songs change  panniten.... ..  

body heat ah irukunu  nallaennai
vechurundheynn......room ku vantuu...kulichutuu.... konjam friends kooda mokkai...

ippo time 10.05.... thookkam varudhu..light ah in ninaippu ..but it's ok ...feel sleepy chellam.. .

goodnyt di...ummaaheww bye

forgetting myself

back to site ... file nd helmet marandhuttennn 😂😂😂

memories of u

today is lovers day ... i wanna say you  ....i love you so much  loosu nd miss u loosu..but I can say here only..

  let's contniue about yesterday.....

morng i was feeling empty nd very tired of sleepless last night  bcos u were not reply..nd I was texting u continuesly ..u said u r n travel with ur family members......but I was thinking that u r trying to avoid  me completely cos the next day 13.2.2017 u will be with ur loved one ...........whole night i was thinking about u like u r gonna very far from me .. nd will end our story here...

I just expected...that u wil say i miss u takecare...but even i don't get a reply ...

I felt tired nd slept for 2 hr till morng 3 am. 13.2.2017.nd again i start texting u cos I'm few hrs u will not be able to talk to me.. .....13th feb mrng around 6 o clk u saw my msg nd no reply.....
I felt like am empty  ...nd getting ready to work ...i started to driving my car nd called u ... not answer ... msgs ..no reply
....... cloudy weather....driving...full of pain n heart ...our memories ...  music's..........   I was feel like a kid and i am trting to control my tears.. .....

arround 7.30 my time..u msg nd started to talking like a stranger ...nd saying i cant talk to u ... don't msg me... in one hr i will be n airport .......  even u not say ... miss u ..takecare.....  I feel like everything gonna over....i couldn't control myself nd felt crying.... nd u asked me that if id disturb u while u r with your family will u reply ?  i have no answer nd said sorry ...  again the same reason u told me which u told me lastnyt that u r with ur mom
nd cousins...  
   reached my destination nd waiting outside that incause if u reply ..i don't want to miss it.. but already am late..

later ur last msg was... I am in airport ...

Replied u    takecare bye.. 

that msgs u deleted  ...   

I tried to concentrate n my work ...  

I forgot a appointment to meet with clients team
......  ..when I around the  sites i rememberd that i used there to talk u for hrs few days back ...

what to do .. nothing n my hand ..

..later u have open ur whatsapp..but I know u cannot see my number which u deleted n chats nd mobile ...
 
enna panradhunu  theriyalai
.....12pm    canteen la silent ah utkaarndhuten ...  somebody was smoking there... i remember that u told me that u like smoking smells nd style..

I took 2 sigrates nd start to smoke... later i felt vomiting ... saapdavum illai
.......   I was open nd close our chat history  n whastsapp...
.. I was imaging what u r doing .....nd asking myself... ennoda njaabagam irukkkumaa....? 

oh my god... whole day was like a hell...

vegamaa azhanum pola irundhuchu

Nee enkitta pesunadhu ...love naa ennaanau  enakku puriya vechadhu...

konjam konjamaa namakulla distance aahnadhu.. ..  ellaamey manasula odikittu irundhuchu..... 

room ku pogalaamm early car eduthuttu kilambitten...
...  unnoda photos ah paarthukittey driving..... fm la situation ku song ...

slightly raining .... unnai semmayaa miss pannen

manasula unnoda ninaippai thavira
edhuvumey illai ..... 

oru visayam marandhutten ...mrng unnoda fb la poi thevai illadha unnoda friends
  msgs ah dlt panniten ...avaru paarthuttaa problem ...thappudhan ...sorry

reached home ... mrng la irundhu 2 tea dhaan sapdalai...sigrate smell bayangaramaa
  vomit vandhuchuu....brush pannitu
...songs keyttutu paduthuten......

evning arround 6 pm nee fb nd whatsapp
online la vandhuchu....  

ennaala peaceful ah irukka mudiyalai...... ennoda manasu oru adam pudikkira 
kizhandhai manasu ah feel pannen

namakulla irundha andha
aazhagaana kaadhal ... vandhu disturb pannitey
irundhuchu
.....group la friends kooda konja neram pesittu ...mind chang panna  try pannen

no use........

7 mani irukum...  walking pogalaamm nu veliya kilambiten  .friends calls ..chats pesikittu..walking jogging... music ...

marakkamudiyalai
......  en mela paithiyama irukura friend kooda
ennaala pesa
mudiyalai....   kovaththula vegama
jogging panna aarambicheyn
... mrng la irundhu saapdalai...smoke smell ..adivayiru varai...ippo jogging

mayakkam varra feeling.....

back home.. .nd again brush to kill the smoking smells...

morethan 40 min n shower.....

saapda thonalai... Nee again
online vandhutu
poirundha pola...

9.30 konjama saaptu..

again friends kooda chat ...i love you nu msg panra friends .. en manasula un  ninaippu.... body tired ..felt sleep ...n midnyt .....lose sleep ...today mrng tottally tired .....
..... ..ipo 4.10 on aagudhu..room ku poren......  driving alone nd music with ur memories .. i like it.. 

room ku poitu fresh aagittu   pesuren.. I love you loossu

 

beginning of my memories with her

   hi to me nd her...

today i have created this blog to keep my memories alive that what happened after  i met her....
I will use a Nickname  to mention her here...

I will use her name as  daalu😚


i was met her n My relative engagement function about 6 month ago...  am gonna share  that whT happened in my life  after i met her  till today ... am writing this only for me...or she might be have a chance to visit here..not sure.

today is 13.2.2017... it was a worst day ever in my life ..why?..thatswhy am here .....lets see...
 am gonna look at back nd ahead by writing what was happened while writing what's happening....  it's too late now...wanna sleep...toMrow will say why today was worst day n my life .....so .....bye  to me nd yazhini ...goodnyt😴